Saturday, December 28, 2013
I take pride in being honest. I value honesty above many other character traits. I admire people who admit their mistakes rather than lying to cover them up. But sometimes I lie, to myself or to DH...
- when I get up at night and eat something that I shouldn't
- when I sneak food that I've asked DH to keep downstairs, or in his office, so I won't see it
- when I buy a bar on my way through the grocery check-out and eat it on the way home
- when I shred the bag from a bag of chips instead of putting it in the garbage
- when I "sample" things I'm cooking
These habits have developed over many years, and breaking them is NOT easy. I'm working hard to be more honest about what, how much, and when I eat. I'm tracking very honestly, and trying hard to stay away from those foods that tempt me the most (mainly salty, crunchy things).
This year I didn't make nuts & bolts... but we were given 3 tins of them! DH put 2 of them away safely... the 3rd, which I didn't tell him about, I ate last night when I couldn't sleep. I'm not proud of this. But if I'm going to be successful in breaking this habit, I have to admit my mistake, and learn from it.
I've included my binge in my daily tracking. I'm drinking extra water today to counter-act the sodium. I did 25 minutes of boot camp (an extra day), and will walk on the treadmill for 90 minutes tonight.
Can I promise that I'll never do it again? NO... but I will try to learn from this experience.
Thanks for reading,