Saturday, December 28, 2013
Lately I have been struggling with finding meaning in my life. End of 2012, we moved from Wisconsin to Tennessee for my husbands new job. I have been mostly staying home since then, volunteering, cooking and working on a blog. This has kept me busy enough, but I have had a hard time finding meaning and purpose in my life. My hope is that by thinking about making some new year's resolutions for 2014, I can make my own meaning. I have always felt that we, as people, make our own meaning in life. Rarely does God speak in his booming voice and say this is what you are to do this year. Most of the time, we humans are doing the best we can with what we are given.
So what are the resolutions I am considering...
1. Keep the weight off that I lost 3 years ago now. I lost about 50 pounds, well, more if we consider the amount I lost before that. I went from when my son was born about 16 years ago almost 200 pounds, to completing my weight loss December 2010 at about 120 lbs. I have gained about 7.5 of those pounds back during the move and time after, as I had been doing 40 minutes of exercise per day with one long exercise day and often times one timed 10K each week. When my husband finished his previous job and was staying home a short while to prep for the move, I stopped doing the 10k and the one long exercise day and didn't really realize that meant I was only doing 40 minutes per day every day and this was a cut back in exercise that needed a cut back in calories. In order to loose those 7.5 pounds, already lost 1.5 of those pounds, I am going to do 45 minutes per day of exercise and one long exercise day (normally a 2 hour walk/hike) and probably a 5K timed jogging/walking intervals with distance being extended as jogging becomes easier. I am a walker who is trying to add in some jogging.
2. Continue to do some charity races and hopefully another half marathon. I completed one half marathon in 2012 and one in 2013 and would like to do another in 2014. My first was about 3 hours and 13 minutes, with my second being 3 hours and 4 minutes and would really like to do one in less than 3 hours this time, hence the adding in some jogging/walking intervals. It seems hard to walk faster than 13.1 miles in 3 hours. I can do that pace for shorter distances, but for that amount of miles, just not sure I can.
3. I would like to add in more strength training and maybe use my kettle bell some. Never been good at doing strength training, just not something I like much.
Some non exercise weight loss ideas...
4. Continue to run my coupon blog and hopefully post more walk/hike trail reviews with pictures. I have been enjoying walking local trails here in Tennessee and documenting them with photographs and verbiage/reviews on my blog. Also be more active on reviewing local restaurants. I seem to get behind on the coupon matchup stuff and forget to do the recipes, walking trail reviews and restaurant reviews. But I want to do more of the walking trail, recipes and restaurant reviews. I enjoy doing them and hope that others find them interesting to read.
5. Maybe find a way to help others with my couponing. I can't seem to convince the local food pantry I volunteer at to give me some money and let me buy some of the things they need, so maybe I could try and use some online crowd sourcing to receive donations on the food pantry's behalf and then buy the toilet paper, bar soap, etc. that they can't buy at Second Harvest. Anything they can get at Second Harvest is cheaper than the tax on the free item I can get. But hygiene items they can't tend to buy there, and many have said how hard those items are to obtain if you are poor/homeless.
6. Continue to see how the English as a second language classes with homework help for the children who come with their parents turns out. Not sure if this will be something I enjoy doing and will find purpose in it or not, but giving my son the ability to possibly help volunteer outside the home with others who may need help, is a good thing. My husband is more of an intellectual who doesn't always see the need of others and my son tends to be the same. I want him to see that we all need help on this earth in some way. Some may need financial help while others may need emotional help. No one is an island and my husband believes this in a way, but doesn't really follow through with it much.
7. I want to continue to be there for my family, even if they don't seem to value it at all. My son will be going to college in a short time and I want him to have whatever opportunities in High School he can. Not that we are springing for a trip to France or anything, but filling out applications and such, is probably going to be something we are doing a fair amount of. Reading his essays and making pointers, etc. Continuing to feed them yummy foods when I can, etc. Maybe try a few new recipes still, but keep many of the old ones including homemade pizza, homemade ravioli (Yes, we make the pasta from scratch and fill them with sweet italian sausage with feta and havarti cheese), many homemade breads and biscuits (even if people from the south say they aren't southern biscuits.)
8. I want to try and find ways to compliment and thank people more. My mother was always a rather negative person and I have a tendency to be like her, especially when I am down in my mood, which I have been a lot lately. The past year has been more down moods than probably any other time in my life, unless my teen years was worse. I want to see if I can turn those moods around and make sure I am not overly negative, especially to my husband and son. I know my husband has gotten a fair amount of that negativity this past year.
I think that is the main things. I will continue to keep my eyes open for a job that would help give me purpose/meaning, but I won't take a job that is just because I want to feel needed/valued. Even though right now, that is tempting.