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Reserving Willpower

Friday, December 27, 2013

As I round up on my third year maintaining anniversary in January I am fifteen pounds above my goal weight. I continue to believe I am maintaining. It is a little regression, it sucks that my pants don't fit but it's not a complete regression.

The lesson I'm taking away from 2013 is that work is the biggest roadblock in my life to maintaining my physical and mental wellbeing. I've been working five parttime jobs, 40+ hours a week. I've increased my income by 1.5% over last year and I'm really good at my jobs but I'm exhausted all the time. I don't have the energy resources to work 40+ hours a week, cook dinner each day, clean, take care of the pets, run errands, and workout regularly.

In fact, I learned that on the days I did fit in a workout I would not have enough willpower left over to complete my work. Maybe some people can just determine the work isn't worth it but it is an obligation I have promised to complete. I also like to pay rent regularly, it's a responsibility thing.

It comes down to a matter of willpower. It is for me an exhaustible resource. Studies show perhaps willpower is something that's all in my head. www.livescience.com/3898

That may be true, but I believe in it. And come 9, 10, 11 at night (every weeknight) when I still have work to complete for the day and my willpower is gone, I will replenish it as necessary with glucose. www.scienceandreligionto

Which is why come 9, 10, 11 at night when I don't want to be working I'm going to stress eat.

Ultimately this is why I'm not surprised that I can't maintain a workout schedule on top of 40+ hours of work a week, daily cooking, nutrition tracking, cleaning the house, as well as completing necessary errands or appointments. This is why I'm not surprised to be up 15 pounds, although I am surprised I haven't gained more.

I do have a brief break from four of my jobs right now, which I will be taking advantage of. For Christmas I gifted myself with a Precision Dance Pad and set up StepMania with plenty of my favorite Jpop and Kpop songs. I am easing back into workouts that will fit into my schedule and not completely exhaust my willpower. I'm also getting back to tracking my food on SP after I've already eaten, much the same as I did when I was just starting out.

I'm also going to be working less in the Spring. I want to earn a comfortable income, but I also want to maintain my physical and mental wellbeing as a priority. I can best do that when I have less work going on, no matter how much I like the work. I have to draw this line even though I don't want to.

All in all I'm maintaining, even one to two pant sizes up, and that's not too shabby. Now pardon me, I could sit on my butt fiddling around on the internet but I'd rather be on my feet playing StepMania.
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  • CATHM26
    That article was really interesting. Thanks for the link.

    1437 days ago
    I hear you! Life gets in the way. But so does my mind. I am opposite of your situation. I have plenty time to exercise and have several options. I exercise regularly in spurts but this last spurt has lasted almost 3 years. With that said it is really about the FOOD because I can exercise my *** Off and still gain some weight. I fight the 15 extra pounds more than I care to. THANK YOU for sharing and congrats on maintenance! emoticon You have proven to yourself that emoticon
    1484 days ago
    Life never goes completely as planned, and it is when we can adapt and still come out ahead or where we want to be, then it is good. Re-evaluate and set up your next phase, which you are doing. You've got this!

    1509 days ago
    I totally feel you, girl! Why is it that work has to get in the way of life?

    One of the things I've learned in maintenance is that I need to learn to manage my weight pretty much through diet alone and not overly rely on exercise. As a result, my idea of what a realistic long-term strategy for activity has shifted in the past two years. Exercise has tons of benefits beyond helping with weight management, but sometimes it's the thing that has to go when things are really hectic. I have to work, I have to cook and clean and I have to tend to my marriage. But do I have to spend an hour at the gym every day? No. I've experienced the burnout keeping up that kind of schedule can cause and it's not pretty. Daily workouts might not be feasible, but three hourlong gym sessions a week plus as much walking as I can manage is. So, I've had to learn to manage my maintenance around that. There may be periods where I have more time and can up my exercise and adjust the rest of what I'm doing to maintain, but on a more normal basis, I am what I eat.

    Good luck in year four of maintenance and in continuing to find balance in all things!
    1511 days ago
  • KANOE10
    You are maintaining despite a very hard work schedule! You have good plans for figuring out how to get workouts in and are making steps towards it. Good for you tracking again. You are right about will power being difficult when you are exhausted. I know you will have a good 2014 year.

    1512 days ago
  • ELLIE381
    You are doing so well. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1513 days ago
    I imagine that with all the stress of the 5 jobs is getting from one to another and just the scheduling etc. Wow, you have a lot on your plate. That said, I commend you for not throwing in the towel and looking for ways to make your life, job, tracking, fitness work. Great Job!

    What is StepMania? I've never heard of it.
    1513 days ago
  • KONRAD695
    I ran into the same problem, literally. Working hard for 50 hours per week, plus family, pets, and then running. Didn't work out right. As soon as I added some life stress, it all fell apart. Now I'm up 15 pounds, but am trying to turn it around. A little less work, balanced workouts, and back to tracking. I think this is a difficulty that many of us have.

    Great job for catching it, and doing something so quickly about it. emoticon emoticon
    1514 days ago
  • PJ2222
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    1514 days ago
    Sounds like you have a good plan, emoticon emoticon
    1514 days ago
  • CAROL494
    Take care!
    1514 days ago
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