Wow. Utterly disgusting. Time has went much faster than I thought...
Friday, December 27, 2013
I am at my highest weight ever. Including childbirth. GROSS. I'm not in the "obese" category yet, but I'm only about 4 pounds from it.
I decided this afternoon that I need to get back on Sparkpeople because it worked for me when I lost 24 pounds "a few years ago". However, I realized that it was actually, in 2006, when my children were 4 and 1. They are now 11 and 8.
SEVEN YEARS is not "a few years ago", it's almost a decade. I've been living fat for almost 10 years. This is going to change, starting NOW.
I do not feel comfortable in my own skin. Or pretty. EVER.
I love to read romance books, and want to be that cute skinny girl that her man can hold and carry. I would be able to share clothes my kids.
I have 2 huge plastic totes in my garage and boxes full of clothes in a smaller size. It's time I stop saying "When I lose weight" I'll fit into them, and instead say, "In February, when I lose 10 pounds, I'll go through them and decide what I can wear!"
I'm starting as of RIGHT NOW, screw waiting until the New Year. This New Year I'll have much more motivation than desire to eat junk food. I know I can do it. If I want a treat, I'll have to plan better, and account for it in my tracker with exercising more.
Here we go!