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What is wrong with me??

Thursday, December 26, 2013

I haven't felt like this since July. All I want to do is eat, like non stop eating. I'm full and I want to eat. I'm bloated and stuffed and have a major food baby, but yet I still want to eat! I want sweets, I want carbs, I want cake, I want pie, I want sugar, I want pizza. OMG, pizza would be fantastic. Like if it wasn't Christmas, I'd highly consider going to the store and buying pizza, oh, or mac and cheese! Like holy crap, give it to me, NOW!

I don't know what's wrong with me. This craving has lasted DAYS. Is it PMS? Is it just my body's bianual GIVE ME FOOD phase? (the last time this happened was around June-August). I mentally can't handle this. I feel like I'm going to crack. The thing is, i know if I eat pizza (which I REALLY, REALLY want), I might die (the last time I had dairy, my lips started to tingle. So anaphylaxis, no, but on its way without an epipen? Yes!).

Like holy crap, give me the food, like seriously. Where is it? Are you hiding it? Yes, I've had quite a large amount of wine, but still, that doesn't explain this food craving.

I made sweet potato pancakes this morning (DELICIOUS!!! -
pancakes/) I had the entire batch for breakfast and lunch - at least I got my protein in! And then when I got off work (yes, I worked today, on Christmas. Oh well), I had some veggie stock (the rest of the soup was used, so it was just the stock left!), a garden salad, an artichoke, some chicken and some cauliflower. So not all that much. I was STUFFED after the sweet potatoes - major food baby, as I mentioned.

I still want to eat though! I just wish I could give into the craving and give my body what it wants. I'm just allergic to what I want. This is awful. I keep eating, I'm full, I keep eating, I want, I NEED. This is beyond my body telling me, it's my brain that's screwed up. Having an impulse/OCD disorder isn't helping, in fact, I think it's stemming this. I'm considering going to the Employee Assistant Program (EAP) at work. We get 6 free therapy sessions a year (did you know the average client get's "healed" in 4 sessions? Yeah freaking right, it took me 5 years to get past my dermatillomania!). So I think I'm going to go and just get advice about eating. I was doing so well and continued to lose weight and lose body fat, but this past week I can't stop eating. I wasn't starving myself in the prior months, I was eating normally (still not enough protein) and I wasn't hungry. But I totally am now. But is it just PMS?

GIVE ME FOOD!! I've even resorted to NOT buying food. No more powdered peanut butter, no more almonds, no more ... uh, that's it. Those are my go to snack foods and they're gone. So anything I want to eat? I need to cook. Completely ok with me, it's portion control (ish). Veggies take some time to cook so it isn't like I can open my fridge and grab a handful of almonds. But my god I just want to eat. I'm freaking out. Help me!
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    Protein shakes are filling and satisfying....maybe you could try and it will help. emoticon
    1539 days ago
    I think you are smart to consider your employee assistance program. Talking it out helps. Good for you for talking it out on here, and you never know, talking to a therapist might be ever more beneficial. Glad you are back on spark!
    1543 days ago
    I had the same problem for three days during the Christmas break, problem with me though... I indulged. it was yummy.

    Good for you for recognizing and not submitting. again, I need your will power.
    1544 days ago
  • FUNGIRL81005
    I totally understand how you are feeling......It is great that you can recognize what is going on in your mind.....You will succeed!! emoticon emoticon
    1548 days ago
    I'm right there with you! For some reason, I can't stop eating. I vowed to myself that Christmas was it! I went grocery shopping today, and i"m going to do this like I started out doing it. I started out by turning my favorite foods into healthy tonight we have whole wheat chicken pot pie! You can do this! Hope you're having a good holiday!
    1548 days ago
    hmm I am sorry you are having such crazy cravings! try and do ANYTHING to keep your mind off of it. soon it will go away
    1549 days ago
    Oh and try cauliflower mac and cheese!! that is so satisfying to the craving for mac and cheese - even my hubby likes it and he enjoys pasta. I use 3 high quality cheeses occasionally - hmmm I have everything in the fridge right now..... emoticon
    1549 days ago
    Protein and fat. Personally I cant eat a raw teaspoon of coconut oil but I have heard it is good! try upping your fat and protein intake. Steak with Ghee chicken strips homemade jerky (yummy!) emoticon
    1549 days ago
    Please search the resources here on Spark People. Go to the nutrition message boards and see what other have done in your situation. Read inspiring stories and let yourself know that if all these people can control those cravings you can too! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1549 days ago
    You may not be getting enough protein in that will help with the cravings and being hungry too
    1549 days ago
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