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Christmas night

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Watching Chopped All-Stars and eating my rib eye steak. Though I say it as shouldn't, I cook a wicked good rib eye!

Tomorrow I have to go back to work and deal with the car, two things I've been too sick to do all week. At least my cold is finally breaking up, which is good. I haven't been that sick in a long time. Not looking forward to the other issues, but I know they need to be done.

I called my ex today to see how my son is doing. Frank is fine (which is the best gift). Ex wouldn't let me finish a sentence, but was determined to burst out singing every time I started to say something. I got off the phone fairly quickly.

A few things need to be fixed. My car tag is two years out of date and I hold my breath every time I go to work. I'm filing my taxes ASAP and getting the refund immediately so I can get it fixed. Once that's done, I'll be able to go out again without fear. I also found a non-denominational church just a mile or so from me. They say they're non-judgmental, and they have a great outreach to the separated and divorced. As a Catholic, I grew up believing God hates divorced people and that you stay with your spouse no matter how much abuse you have to take.

This evening I got some of my kitchen cleaned. There's a lot to go, but it looks better than it has in quite awhile. Tonight I'm also going to shelf my cookbooks that are sitting around.

No matter what, this will be my last Christmas alone. I love Chopped and I love my steak, but this is NOT the way to spend Christmas. Hopefully I can make friends at the new church that also need friends to have Christmas dinner with.

Back to work tomorrow. Oh, goodie.
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    I am so glad you will be going to the new church, and have made a non-solo Christmas a goal for the new year. I hope and pray all will turn out for the best for you.
    1488 days ago
    Yeccch! about going back to work...the party's over for so many, sadly...

    But good for you, for being so proactive about getting into a church that might have the prospects of feeling like home! May you be wonderfully surprised and happy with your choice!

    And you sound like quite a talented cook, too! emoticon
    1488 days ago
    You can take it all in your stride and come out well. I'm glad you have found a place where you may feel comfortable in the social sense.

    I'm sure that once the car is fixed and tagged you will feel better and get out more.
    1488 days ago
    Good for you for joining the church. Getting out is the best XMAS gift you can give yourself. Those lucky people get to experience your great sense of humor and wit!
    Two other places that are non judgmental are overeaters' anonymous and TOPS (take off pounds sensible.) I have been to both in my life.

    Have a wonderful 2014 and don't forget to blog next Xmas about the great Xmas dinner you made for all your new friends. I'm jealous they get to experience your food and I only get pictures.

    1488 days ago
    Hope you are feeling better. And may next year's Christmas be much better.
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    Wishing you the best. Working today myself. Hugs.
    1488 days ago
    having the same situation in some ways like you did not walk out but was it wise hope my son was not badly affected anyway its all past now stay well
    1488 days ago
    The Catholic Church has become more reasonable about what constitutes a "sacred" marriage, and from what I know of you, neither you nor your ex had the ability to contract a true marriage under Catholic doctrine, which requires a degree of emotional maturity neither of you had. (Sounds like he still doesn't, right?)

    I believe God weeps when He hears Himself described as hating any group, whether it's divorced people, gay people, certain ethnicities, or whatever. In order to really know what God thinks, you'd have to be smarter than He is, wouldn't you? I hope this nondenominational church will be a good, supportive and caring place for you, and that you will find a sense of purpose there.

    I know what you mean about dreading going back to work. I've had jobs like that too. You and your car situation are in my prayers. May your guardian angels surround you with their love and protection.
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    Looking up marriage and divorce in the Catholic church I see that unless a couple went into the marriage with the inability to have a sacred marriage, you will always be married, but it also says that a couple who cannot make a marriage work should separate. I don't see anywhere that God hates people who are divorced at all. Abuse is definitely a respected reason to leave a marriage. Love yourself, and take care of yourself. God has given you strengths. I did a wonderful exercise writing out all the things that God is to me and "father figure" would not fit in there. I was very blessed to have a group supporting me that pointed out that God has come to people in many forms. I hope that your relationship with God grows in this new church. God is full of grace and my spiritual beliefs see God as loving unconditionally... which was a process I had to accept to learn to love myself. I find it is me who is more unforgiving. emoticon
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    1489 days ago
    Good luck today!
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    Merry Christmas to you!
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    emoticon Merry Christmas!
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