Wednesday, December 25, 2013
I am more than my reflection in the mirror.
I am more than the person you see struggling to make it up the flight of stairs or bending (and gasping) to tie my shoes.
I am a person with feelings, with dreams and goals. I am a unique individual with a lot of good qualities. I am worthy of love.
You may not give me a chance because you are judging me by my weight.
You think I have no self control, that I want to look this way.
You see me laugh in a self-deprecating way so you feel comfortable laughing with (at) me too.
You do not know me.
But I know you. I was you, a long time ago, when weight was not a problem for me. Yes, I was a person who looked down on fat people, who judged them, who made comments they couldn't hear. I was the mean girl, the thin shapely girl who could eat anything without gaining an ounce. The girl you hated but wished you could be.
I am so sorry for who I was. I am sorry for making fun of you, for treating you so badly. I wish I knew then what I know now.
What I know now is that we are all human, with our good points and bad points, we all make mistakes and we all are not perfect. Not one of us is any better than another. No one has the right to judge another person, especially for the way they look. We all deserve respect, love and a chance to try again when we fail.
I'm giving myself the chance to be better than I was.