Happy Christmas to those in the UK!
I say that a lot for some reason...and I am not even of British descent.
Anyway.... the season certainly brought out a ton of changes over here in my house. For example: I decided that cookie baking is totally overrated - especially when all it does is bring me grief.
How so, you might ask? Well, you carve out time, to carve out sugar cookies, year after year, host a decorating party, have them hang around for weeks and weeks, then put them out for dessert on Christmas Eve, only to have them not eaten and then have noone take them home like they said they would and then the very next day...you chuck them because noone in your family is going to eat them anyway.
Total waste of money and time.
Enter the MoM GUiLT - "but you just broke with tradition with your kids...what are they going to think?"
My kid's answer: Mom, they are just cookies...we would rather you make cookies more during the year, so we could enjoy them with our school lunches.
I have some really smart kids, don't I? Yup..yup, I do.
I remember my mom baking these special cookies from Czeckoslovakia...very labor intensive...and noone ate them either back then.. maybe because they were as dry as a fart in the desert. She baked them because of tradition...and I tried them one year when I was a new mom, and even then was left with them hanging around the house, just like the sugar cookies I was making every year now. I don't see anyone else in the family making them either...so I think I can give myself a repreive on the guilt over here.
Hubby says to make what we enjoy as a family...that we make our own traditions. So this year, the cookie thing was cut back because of time and stress constraints...and the traditional Slovak dinner (that I so wanted to change up this year) is still mostly intact, except now it will be a buffet on paper goods (our dishwasher is broken)... and next year, when we figure out what this 9-5 job will do to the family... and we will figure it all out once again!
Good heavens!!! What a rambling blog we have today! It must be because I am battling the traditionalist inside of me and the new modern age we live in..to find the balance because this year - there was no balance except for me raising the white flag and saying "NO" to the things that make me most crazy during the holiday season...heck, saying "NO" to more than that if you really think about it. ... and that is OK to do some times.
Anyway...today is all about the family coming over. We host it every year, and every year, it is fine, despite my nerves that come about each year. We are tweaking some of the traditions, which is fine..and I think it will run more smooothly.. we shall see... maybe the craziness is part of the whole thing! and it's just supposed to be that way no matter what!
Ewwwwww...not one mention from me about my food thing going on right now.
OK - here we go: I do NOT crave sugar anymore....in fact, it turns my stomach to think of eating it.
SO weird. Cookies, just thinking about them makes me cringe. Wine, same thing. And I know I need to eat, but there is nothing that is even remotely appealing to me. I feel like I have a craving for something, but I don't know what it is... Maybe I am having a vegetable craving that is not being satisfied with all of the carbs hanging around me? I don't know.. All I know is that I eat to live...and not live to eat anymore. Maybe it's a maintenance thing... a level of achievement or something that your body goes in to... but it is so WEIRD! Especially when everyone is eating everything around you and you could care less. And no, I am not losing weight....maintenance weight holding steady like a giant bouy in the ocean.
Oh-----I ordered my own Christmas present this year: A PRESSURE COOKER!!! I am so excited!! I cannot wait to use it!
And if Santa is extra good this year....I will be getting a Nutribullet too!!! For my kale drink that isn't good because my blender stinks at pulverizing things.
Holy cow this is such a random blog, it's so not funny!!
Anyway, it is what it is...MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!!!!!