Monday, December 23, 2013
It's almost Christmas Eve and I was so hoping that I would hear news from work that I got the additional PT job at my current place of employment that would give me FT hours and benefits. However today I found out another employee in our department that also works PT and FT for the State applied for the job as well and she has WAY more seniority than I !!! I have no doubts that she will def get the position.
I am so disappointed on so many levels. I felt so good and positive that this was put in front of me for all the right reasons, the advantages def outweighed the negatives about it becoming a 7 day work week still just being a 40 hour week and the addiction of every holiday at time and 1/2. All this to allow me to continue to do the job that I love doing and to get medical benefits that I desperately need. Since I'm not a morning person and my M-F hours are 11-5 and the weekend would have been 12-5 just nothing short of perfect.
It was 4 years ago this time of year that I was offered the job I have now and considered it a Christmas gift that ended up being the start to changing my life around in many ways; one my faith in God grow dramatically, second I quit smoking and 3rd I found the way to learn to live a healthy lifestyle so I just thought this was gonna be act 2. But alas it was just not meant to be.
My faith is strong that things happen for a reason and that God's will did not include this additional position. I'm not sure what it is but then we never know until He let's it happen.
I realize tonight is just full of disappointment and even some anger but that it will go away tomorrow and I will look for signs that things are gonna work out and I will get the benefits and extra money I need to take care of the necessary things in my world that I need. But a few extra prayers wouldn't hurt. Thanks for letting me vent and get it off my chest.