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wow, I didn't see that coming .............

Monday, December 23, 2013

It's almost Christmas Eve and I was so hoping that I would hear news from work that I got the additional PT job at my current place of employment that would give me FT hours and benefits. However today I found out another employee in our department that also works PT and FT for the State applied for the job as well and she has WAY more seniority than I !!! I have no doubts that she will def get the position.

I am so disappointed on so many levels. I felt so good and positive that this was put in front of me for all the right reasons, the advantages def outweighed the negatives about it becoming a 7 day work week still just being a 40 hour week and the addiction of every holiday at time and 1/2. All this to allow me to continue to do the job that I love doing and to get medical benefits that I desperately need. Since I'm not a morning person and my M-F hours are 11-5 and the weekend would have been 12-5 just nothing short of perfect.

It was 4 years ago this time of year that I was offered the job I have now and considered it a Christmas gift that ended up being the start to changing my life around in many ways; one my faith in God grow dramatically, second I quit smoking and 3rd I found the way to learn to live a healthy lifestyle so I just thought this was gonna be act 2. But alas it was just not meant to be.

My faith is strong that things happen for a reason and that God's will did not include this additional position. I'm not sure what it is but then we never know until He let's it happen.

I realize tonight is just full of disappointment and even some anger but that it will go away tomorrow and I will look for signs that things are gonna work out and I will get the benefits and extra money I need to take care of the necessary things in my world that I need. But a few extra prayers wouldn't hurt. Thanks for letting me vent and get it off my chest.
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    As you wrote on your main page "I will blog about these changes as they happen because that's what we SPARKPEOPLE do. We share with each other our successes, our accomplishments, our NSV, our temptations, and so much more. We give and we get motivation, inspiration and encouragement and we stay strong together. "


    Thanks so much for sharing with us and letting us help support you.
    1514 days ago
    I was a PT tech & enjoyed it very much. I wish you well with the future. Rhonda
    1520 days ago

    Your current position has allowed room in your life for the very thing you needed the most, your faith. Without that faith, you would not be so tolerant nor accepting of God's will. Be patient, my friend. You will have all you need in time and it will be a wonderful year ahead for you. Perhaps your time and services are going to be needed in other areas. Remain faithful and open and you will be blessed. Have a Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year.

    1523 days ago
    Excuse the doubles, please - something wrong with dear old computer still! M
    1523 days ago
    Aren't there times you want to go outside, stare up at the sky. stamp your foot and say
    'OK! i GET IT! What do You want me to do now?"
    I was so happy to get the following email the other day -

    "When God pushes you to the edge, trust Him fully,
    Because only two things can happen.
    Either He will catch you when you fall or
    He will teach you how to fly."

    Blessings, Meri

    1523 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/23/2013 10:55:35 PM
    Aren't there times when you want to go outside, stare up at the sky, stamp your foot and say "OK! I got it! But what do You want me to do now?"
    I was happy to get the following the other day -

    "When God pushes you to the edge, trust Him fully, because only two things
    can happen. Either He will catch you when you fall or He will teach you
    how to fly."

    Blessings, Meri
    1523 days ago
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    There is still a possibility that you will get the job. I am praying for you. It is difficult to understand why a state worker would want that position; most state employees have excellent benefits and time off for Holidays. That being said, I do believe that "when one door closes another opens". Sometimes it is difficult to see or find that door right away, but eventually you see it and walk right through.

    Hang in there and try to stay positive!!

    Hugs and xoxoxo~~Sherry
    1523 days ago
    Will pray for you!! Remember at least you have a PT job!! I can't even find that much!
    1523 days ago
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