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Christmas Vent

Monday, December 23, 2013

Yesterday was such a blah and I guess sick and sad day....why? ???
I just couldn't get a move on.

Didn't make it to church --- stomach rebelling due to the lactose that I had cheated on Friday....I go cold Turkey all year but lost my will power to 3 cupcakes. (poison to my body)

Didn't make it to the King of Love performance in Donna by our Flippino Community (no tickets but I could get in when I showed up) Just didn't want to be with a crowd...and so tired of going everywhere by myself.

Didn't go to one of my students Baptism at her church that I was invited to - Jesus Christ of Ladder Day Saints -- felt uncomfortable going to a new place due to my claustrophobia and still no push to even try. Plus I felt guilty as I didn't even go to my church that day at St. Pius X Catholic Church.

Then my neighbor / student / family called me that our church was having a Children's Posada and why wasn't I there.....just feeling more blah.

I ventured out on Saturday to Christmas shop and maybe it was overwhelming....don't like the was the 80's .....the wind does a number on my lungs....but I have to force myself out there again today as I need to buy a gift for my Aunt (my mom's sister)....and realize that I had left out 3 other relatives that will be showing up to the Christmas Gathering Christmas Eve.

My friend once told me that I tend to shut down at a certain time in the Christmas break after school ends (not busy)...maybe that's part of it --- as I miss my parents so much during this time of year. But I am keeping the spirit up for my son as my mom always did even in her bad times....One side of the living room is the traditional Christmas tree with so many memories of childhood Santa' trains....and on the other side my Nativity's ......Angels.......Maybe all the Christmas Carols I have been listening to sitting on my mom's lazy boy chair with Saide has me tearing up too?

Well I appreciate you listening to me vent / cry and be grateful for all I have.
I have to remember that there are others this Christmas that are needy, homeless, illness and so much more. I lift these people up every night in my prayers.

May God Bless each of you reading and may everyone in the entire world remember the Reason for the Season.

Christmas Spark Friend

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

RAINBOWMF 12/30/2013 3:13PM

    emoticon Marcy some of us have these sad times at Christmas or most holidays

I hope you are feeling a lot better now.


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GLORYB2014 12/30/2013 1:26PM

    emoticon Marcy!
emoticon Gloria

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LILYSDOGS 12/24/2013 10:12PM

    Marcy, I know how you feel ((Hugs)) I go a lot of places alone too. Too bad we don't live closer we could do things together. I am lucky that I have my mom close by in Edinburg and my brother in Mission. We are going to my brothers tomorrow morning to open gifts and have breakfast at his house. I will pick up my mom and we will go to his house early tomorrow morning. The rest of the day I don't have any plans but a friend invited me to their house for dinner later. I will just relax at home in the afternoon. I'm looking forward to our get together on the 29th.

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BLPRETTYGIRL1 12/24/2013 11:38AM

    Christmas is a stressful time of the year for most of us. We spend money that we can't afford any other time of the year. Way too much socializing and eating tempting foods Greed of people trying to get the ultimate gift. The gift is Christ and they already have that within them. They just have to reach out.. Amenl

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BROOKLYN_BORN 12/24/2013 7:47AM

    I needed to read this blog and the comments this morning. You reached someone who you don't even know. Yes, it is CHRIST's birthday after all. Thank you for posting your thoughts.

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YJNANA 12/23/2013 3:36PM

That's Special you got a gift from one of your students :) sounds pretty.
I think Christmas is one of the hardest months. We reflect on people we love, people that have left us. Very emotional month.
If I stay really busy, I do better.
Being alone is hard. I think if a celebration is done on a day before or After, it gives a person a chance to visit, without all the rush, and different directions everyone is trying to go.
Wishing you a very MERRY CHRISTMAS.
Hope you feel better, and STOP eating lactose :)

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MNNSAIDE 12/23/2013 3:24PM

    This morning right after I wrote the blog, one of my co-workers with my student (5yrs old) was on their way to bring me a gift---- I had to get ready!!!

My present that they gave me was like a message from GOD!!!

It was a beautiful turquoise cross with pink letters that sayed:

Trust in God in with all your heart!!!

Now was that a sign or what???

They also gave me a beautiful dragonfly sun catcher / candy cane.

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ARTSKY 12/23/2013 2:25PM

    Yes this is a lonely time of the year. We are staying home alone also. Hubby likes it that way. I like to be with people. So I'll spend all day making a dinner for the 2 of us and than clean up and find room for all the left overs. The kids will call when they have time. But like Irene said this is CHRIST'S birthday and that's what counts.
Marcy I hope you feel better soon.
Hugs Fern

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DIDMIS 12/23/2013 12:19PM

    Marcy I know how you feel about some of that. I did go to a party last night as I wrote in my blog (at Brian, his wife and 3 children's house).

We just take one gift then they number them, draw numbers and you get that gift. Ha ha guess what I got. I got tea, coffee, a mug, cookies, etc. stuff I should stay away from.

This is my sad time of the year also as you know I am alone except for church and friends which are fewer and fewer and the 25th I have no invites at all so maybe I will spend it with CHRIST. After all we are celebrating HIS birthday.

I have tried calling Becky, Spark Mailing her, everything but hear no word. Do you know if she is coming the 29th or not?
I forgot to say I ike our Santa Claus picture.


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