Monday, December 23, 2013
Yesterday was such a blah and I guess sick and sad day....why? ???
I just couldn't get a move on.
Didn't make it to church --- stomach rebelling due to the lactose that I had cheated on Friday....I go cold Turkey all year but lost my will power to 3 cupcakes. (poison to my body)
Didn't make it to the King of Love performance in Donna by our Flippino Community (no tickets but I could get in when I showed up) Just didn't want to be with a crowd...and so tired of going everywhere by myself.
Didn't go to one of my students Baptism at her church that I was invited to - Jesus Christ of Ladder Day Saints -- felt uncomfortable going to a new place due to my claustrophobia and still no push to even try. Plus I felt guilty as I didn't even go to my church that day at St. Pius X Catholic Church.
Then my neighbor / student / family called me that our church was having a Children's Posada and why wasn't I there.....just feeling more blah.
I ventured out on Saturday to Christmas shop and maybe it was overwhelming....don't like the crowds....it was hot....in the 80's .....the wind does a number on my lungs....but I have to force myself out there again today as I need to buy a gift for my Aunt (my mom's sister)....and realize that I had left out 3 other relatives that will be showing up to the Christmas Gathering Christmas Eve.
My friend once told me that I tend to shut down at a certain time in the Christmas break after school ends (not busy)...maybe that's part of it --- as I miss my parents so much during this time of year. But I am keeping the spirit up for my son as my mom always did even in her bad times....One side of the living room is the traditional Christmas tree with so many memories of childhood .....my Santa's...my trains....and on the other side my Nativity's ......Angels.......Maybe all the Christmas Carols I have been listening to sitting on my mom's lazy boy chair with Saide has me tearing up too?
Well I appreciate you listening to me vent / cry and be grateful for all I have.
I have to remember that there are others this Christmas that are needy, homeless, illness and so much more. I lift these people up every night in my prayers.
May God Bless each of you reading and may everyone in the entire world remember the Reason for the Season.
Christmas Spark Friend