I canít believe how quickly this year has gone by. Even more, I canít believe how much my life has changed since this time last year.
As a second shift worker, Iíve always tried to sleep late in the mornings so as not to be tired at work. I think back about when I was young and how sleep came so easily. I long for that type of sleep again, but I simply have too much on my mind. My thoughts keep invading my sleep and I wake several times during the night and much too early in the morning. This morning is no different, except that I donít have a big Doberman head in my face telling me to get up and let him out.
Iím glad the weekend is over. Iíd spent several days dreading its arrival, knowing that weíd made the decision to end Thorís battle with cancer Saturday night. His cancer had spread throughout his abdomen and into his lungs. We knew he was having issues with pain and had increased his medications. It helped, but he was still having problems and I could not bear the thought that he might still be in pain. It was getting harder for him to get up and down on his three legs and to walk around. Even as he continued to smile his big Dobe grin at us, we could still see him struggling to enjoy the things he loved. Thor was a trooper right up to the end.
Enjoying one of many rest stops on his walk Saturday afternoon.
Saturday was a long day, but we gave Thor an early Christmas. He got his new blanket and went for a car ride on his pillow. On the way home we stopped at KFC to get him his very own mash potato bowl, something he loved very much. He had a long walk with lots of pain meds and even more stops to lay and rest, and he grinned the entire way. For dinner he had homemade lasagna and his absolute favorite - ice cream! Lots of visitors came by throughout the day to shower him with hugs and kisses. As my tired boy settled in for the night on his favorite cushy pillow, my daughter-in-law arrived at our home with the doctor who would end his pain and give him the rest he so desperately needed. Thor passed over the rainbow bridge shortly after 10:00 on Saturday night. There was not a dry eye in the house, but we knew it was the right thing for him.
Many of you have read my ďBest FriendsĒ blog I posted in 2011 and already know the story of Tommy and Thor. I take comfort in knowing that Tommy was waiting for Thor on the other side and that my boys are back together again. A friend told me that Tommyís Christmas present this year was having his buddy back with him; I think she was right. Maybe they even have a golf cart to ride in heaven!
Tommy and Thor on their golf cart.
I have friends telling me I need to go get another dog. And I will, in time. For a while though, Iíll just shower my hugs and kisses on my sonís dog, Heinlein.
Sorry my friends, but hereís where I jump back up on my soap box! I know youíve heard this from me before so forgive me for continuing to preach, but this is something I feel so strongly about. When the time comes for me to get another furry friend, I will go to our local shelter and bring one, or two, home with me. Thor was a rescue from a bad situation and he was an amazing boy. I know he can never be replaced, but I will save a life and share my home with another amazing friend who needs and deserves a home. The shelters are full of furry friends, some who have never had a loving home, others who were surrendered by their owner for some reason. Most of them will eventually face euthanasia. Please, if you are considering getting a pet for yourself or for a loved one, check out your local shelter. You might just find your next best friend there and also save a life. If you are considering buying a puppy, first ask yourself where it came from. There is a good chance that it came from a puppy mill, and if you donít already know about puppy mills, please check out the information provided at this link - www.aspca.org/fight-crue
I will stay busy at work tonight and tomorrow night, but Iím off on Christmas day and Thursday. Iíll have Christmas lunch with Tommyís family and then dinner at home with my boys, daughter-in-law, friends, and even Heinlein.
Please remember those who are less fortunate this year and keep them in your prayers. Even during our darkest hours, there is always something to be thankful for.
I love all my Spark Friends and I WISH YOU ALL A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!
God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.