Sunday, December 22, 2013
Here we sit at Dec 20. My last blog date was Oct. 28. Ugh. I just keep walking through the days as I can. With the shift of the start page, I'm earning more points per month now, but that doesn't mean I'm exercising more. I want to say I'm doing what I can do, but that would be a lie. I'm doing what's in front of me, and that's led to some serious mistakes in eating habits. Feeling I have no support has been hard. I have virtual support. I need to be more active in finding nearby healthy support. That means stepping outside the hamster ball I'm comfortable in. Not an easy step when the darkness has been heavy.
I'm teaching more than I have for several years, and do feel healthy, some days, but the balance continues to be off. I need to find more rest so I can be active in the things I want to be active in! That may seem odd, but with multiple chronic illnesses, I need to balance rest with activity. It's important for me and for my family.
I *will* do what I can.
I *will* keep food on hand that's healthy.
I *will* find ways to let others know what my needs are and not feel guilty for expressing those needs.
I *will* strive to be a good example of self-care for my kiddos.
I'm frustrated at still feeling "bleh." There are more good days than not, though. It had been 14 months since I'd seen one of the specialists! That's a good thing. The flare that took me there is not as severe as it could be, either. I'm learning how to handle some of this. There are still a few more handles to find. That's all.
Thanks for reading. Hope it made some sense. Now, back to my nap.