Saturday, December 21, 2013
Finally gave up and called the surgeon to set up an appointment to get my hip replaced. The pain has been horrible the past couple of weeks and I don't like living on pain meds--it's not really living. I want my health back so I can exercise and get the rest of this weight off FINALLY. I can't even walk 10 feet now without excruciating pain so it's definitely time--probably way past time, but at least I'm doing it. Soonest I can get in is Feb. 4, but the time will go by quick enough. I'm trying to do some exercises pre-op to strengthen the leg muscles, but am very limited due to the pain. Still--I see a light at the end of that tunnel. Once that heals, I can have my shoulder replaced and then on to both knees. Looks like 2014 will be a year of hospital and rehab--lots of exercising and working to get my mobility back. I may actually have a life worth living after all. I'm so thankful that I can get these done and that we have such a good surgeon here locally. For the first time in a long time, I have hope again.
I know it's been a long time since I posted anything here, but for months I struggled just to maintain my weight loss without losing another ounce since Valentine's Day. Then in mid-November I went through a very stressful situation at our clubhouse and gained 22 lbs. in 3 weeks. Since then I've been struggling to get that back off. For the past 2 weeks I've had extreme pain with my hip. Up until now it's been on and off and never really horrible pain--just enough to let me know I needed to get something done with it eventually. My plan was to lose another 25-50 pounds and have it done next summer, but it just won't wait. Then last week I had a sudden 3-day bout with the flu and dropped 10 of those pounds--glad they're gone, but not a good way to do it. I think with my healthy eating, I'd probably been on the verge of losing it and the flu just put me over the edge to release it. Either way, I'm glad that's gone and now I can work on the other 12 again. And I'm sure once I have the surgery and don't have pain to contend with, I'll be able to exercise my heart out and lose really well.
The pain and the frustration I've had with that stressful situation last month had put me in a deep depression which I've been struggling to climb out of. I have had trouble with depression in the past and know that I need to avoid that as it could be life threatening. Now, I'm just focusing on the positive things I can look forward to once my hip is replaced. I can almost remember what it's like to be able to walk without hurting. It's been nearly 40 years since I could walk, dance, play golf, go bowling, do aerobics, etc. without pain at every step. I feel young again just thinking about it! So please keep me in your prayers in the meantime. I have a lot of reconstruction to get done, but I know it will be worth it. And then, there's no limit to what I can do or how far I can go!!! I'm gonna LOVE this body!