Friday, December 20, 2013
I just want to avoid the memories;
I don't want to deal with them.
I am awake so I can avoid them;
I can place my focus on other things.
I don't want to think about the past;
all the pain the suffering the tears.
As I sleep the memories haunt me;
I can not control it - the memories.
I hate that I allowed this to happen;
to allow myself to be such a victim.
I just won't sleep – it's the only way;
I don't want to think about it.
The things I've dealt with are sinful;
why did they choose to hurt me.
Why can't the memories just go away;
they haunt me more and more everyday.
Noone should have to these memories;
but they are mine and have been