i just happened to look at my Sparkpage and caught a glimpse of my goals for 2013. Now that the year is almost up, let's see how I did. I will say that 2013 turned out much differently than I thought it would in January. Isn't that always the way?
Goals and hopes for myself in 2013:
* I'm going to run my first 10K and keep running 5Ks, which will help me reach my annual fitness minutes goal, too.
Wellllll……that didn't happen! I ran a couple of 5Ks, but I didn't train or run consistently enough to do a 10K. I ended up surprising myself at Iron Girl earlier this month when I not only ran the whole thing - despite not training! - but beat my previous best time by 1:30!
Me at Iron Girl a couple of weeks ago
Speaking of fitness minutes…I am not going to reach that goal either. I was aiming for 15,000 fitness minutes this year, but right now, I'm just over 13,000. I'm pushing hard for 14,000, which I think I can do. I'm not too upset about not reaching 15K though. I've worked hard this past year and while I could have worked out more just to get the minutes, I feel good about the work I've put in.
* I want to do more things that scare me. I had a couple of things on an adventure list for 2012, but I didn't do them. It's ON this year! Climbing Cowles Mountain in San Diego and taking a spin class - these two things scare the hell outta me, so I'm definitely doing them.
Dangit! I guess I still have time to take a spin class, but I need to do it very soon. Eek. I did climb Cowles Mountain a couple of times this year - and loved it! I was pretty nervous the first time, but I had great friends there who had my back the whole time. The second time I did it, the whole thing was much easier. I had started Kaia FIT by then, so my level of fitness was a bit higher and I think the familiarity helped, too.
First Cowles Mountain hike with Sparkpeeps
I'll talk a bit more about Kaia later, but this program has pushed me to try new things - even ones that scare me - and I've found that I'm able to rise to meet challenges in new ways. I've seen a lot of growth in myself this year and a lot of it is due to Kaia.
* I am determined to stop beating myself up. What good comes from it? I wouldn't talk that way to anyone else, so why is it OK to do that to myself? Sounds logical, but following up with action is tough. I consciously did this before and was amazed at how much better I felt.
Ugh. Still a constant, every-day battle. I go through stages where I'm actively trying not to do this and I feel a bit better, and then other stages where I "just don't care" and beat myself up constantly. And feel like crap. I have taken steps to recognize triggers though, and I do try to avoid those. Being more aware in general is one step, but I think I might always have to wrestle with this.
* Taking care of my health is another big goal. I avoided doctors for years and let small problems grow larger. I don't have time and energy to waste, so I need to tackle health issues as they crop up. Tracking my food, drinking enough water, and eating fresh, beautiful foods will be my baseline for healthy living. If it's a habit, it takes very little work.
This was hit or miss for me this year. My first instinct is always to try to fix the problem myself. I do some research, I try some things, and then if that fails, I go to the doctor. I tried this with my elbow tendinitis and that didn't quite work. I finally went to the doctor, but I don't think it helped as much as I hoped. It was a combo of their advice and my research on stretching and strengthening that finally helped me heal and get back in the game. I've had a couple of other health things pop up this year - nothing big - but I didn't take care of them as quickly as I should have. Now I'm dealing with the effects, so let's hope I've learned my lesson!
Looking back at these goals, I realize how broad and kind of vague they are. These were the things on my mind in January and while I knew that I should set more specific goals, I guess I wasn't ready to do that.
A lot has changed this year. In March, a Kaia FIT women's-only bootcamp/gym opened near me and I joined. I have a few friends in Nevada who have been doing this program for years and have seen great results, so I took a chance on it. I'm so glad I did! This, by far, has been the best thing that's happened in 2013. The program features mostly bodyweight work with intervals and circuits and some resistance.
When I started, I had trouble doing even the modified versions of most moves like squats, push-ups, burpees, lunges, etc. I still do sometimes and it's been several months! But it doesn't get me down. At all. Kaia coaches tell you to "find your hard" and work toward that in every move, every class, every day. I know that my version of hard is different from someone who weighs 70 lbs less than I do. I don't compare myself to anyone else in class - and that keeps me sane. For a few months, I was the only bigger girl in class. Now there are 2 of us. We team up for running drills because we know that our speeds are similar to each other and slower than the rest of the class. We try to do better than we did the previous week instead of trying to keep up with the other girls or beat another pair in class. I've embraced the challenge of being stronger than myself the day before. And that is what makes me pop out of bed at 4 am to go sweat!
Me doing a wall handstand - never thought I'd be able to do that!
I also started lifting weights. And I fell in love with it! I go in my garage and I put a heavy iron bar and plates on my back and squat or push it over my head or lift it off the ground from a dead stop. I feel strong and that makes me feel SO GOOD. It's done a lot for my confidence and it makes me want to see what I can accomplish. I never thought I could do this but I've learned that my body is pretty amazing. I just have to get my brain to give it a chance to show me what I can do.
Squatting with an empty bar
I haven't yet outlined my goals for 2014, but they'll be based on numbers - specifics! - this time. I never set a weight goal because that's not doing me any good. I've tried not to weight myself more than once a month for the past several months. I know I feel better when I ignore the scale and focus on how my clothes fit or how I look in photos or what I can accomplish that I couldn't do a month ago. I like focusing on progress rather than the scale.
The other thing I've found this year is My Fitness Pal. I've actually been using that more often than Spark and it seems like a better fit for me going forward. If anyone wants to friend me on there, I'm hmjohnson25.
I hope you all enjoy the holidays and kick some booty in 2014!