Friday, December 20, 2013
I got to walk with a friend today! That hasn't happened in months, and it was just random--she saw me out walking yesterday & asked if she could join me today. And I wasn't even planning to walk two days in a row!
I am not a big plan ahead, schedule kind of person. I should probably give that some thought. I could make a list of household things that need to be done that I just keep putting on the list in my head. But I won't call to make an appt. to get my brakes done, or go to the lab to get the bloodwork done this month, or several other things.
And my plans for better choices haven't happened on a regular basis either. I am just floating through life, letting it happen to me instead of taking charge. I'm thinking that eliminates my responsibility if I'm not actually making the choices.
That was a surprising thought to write down.....No responsibility for my choices. Is that what my brain is really thinking??? I have believed all my life that I am here on earth to make choices and learn from them, so I can become the best person I can be. And I certainly know that making no choice is just an illusion. Well, I'm not going to fall for that!
I'm taking charge of my life. I'm not floating any more, because that is just a lie. If I'm not moving in a positive direction, them I'm moving in a negative one and that's what my scale is telling me, although I've been discounting that fact as well.
Thank you to the part of my brain that was brave enough to face the facts! I support you!