Friday, December 20, 2013
It would seem that my Spark has returned to me! I will remain cautiously optimistic at this point, but optimistic nonetheless. Yay!
Yesterday did wonders to my mood. I didn't realize how depressed I have been over the past few months. Even though I've only upgraded to a "pleasant" mood standing, the difference is vast. I might as well be giddy, haha. It was great getting to spend the day at home doing fun things like reading, writing, watching feel-good movies and wrapping Christmas presents. Not to mention I cooked lunch AND dinner. Haha, that's a first in I don't know how long.
Yesterday's calories came it at - dun dun da da! - 1163. I'm absolutely ecstatic about this. I think I did an absolutely stellar job yesterday. I ate four times spaced 3-4 hours apart, drank plenty of tea and water and coffee throughout the day. For lunch I made the cheesy tuna pasta with veggies recipe I found on my meal tracker awhile back, and only ate half of the 420 calorie meal. I followed that up with a double serving of Honey Nut Cheerios in almond milk, then threw together a casserole with what few ingredients I had in the house for dinner. It came out to 400 calories a serving, but that was because I used 2 cups of shredded cheese instead of 1 (it would be pretty low cal if I had cut back on that). It was made up of broccoli florets, brown rice, 98% fat free cream of chicken, and crumbled turkey bacon. It wasn't amazingly fabulous but it definitely got the job done for a quick, tasty meal! Follow that up with a second bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios and an indulgence of 2 Tbsp of fat free creamer in my coffee and that's my food day.
Today is going to be a bit more difficult, though. I've said that I would make an appearance at three separate holiday parties - and promised to bring side dishes to two of them, which are potlucks. Not only do I have to make something that everyone else will like that I can watch my calories on, but I have to brave whatever delicacies they choose to bring as well. It's going to be tough having to navigate that food without someone picking up on my hesitation and start asking questions. I really don't like people in my daily life knowing I'm "dieting," as they would put it. Brings on too many misconceptions and conversations I don't want to have. I'll just have to see how it goes, I guess.
Anywho, I've chalked up some new goals for this leg of my weight loss journey! How does this sound?
I would love to be in the 150's by the end of this upcoming June, but that would mean having to lose 2.16 lbs a week between now and then. I think that is a bit extreme. Instead my goal is to hit 150 or get into the upper 140's by September 1. I think that's much, much more reasonable at about 1.7 lbs lost every week. If I stick to a regimen of healthy eating and exercise, I should be able to do that!
Food wise, I really want to focus on getting back to basics and making choices that aren't only calorie friendly, but also healthy for me. Even though it's a huge staple, I'm seriously considering cutting white rice (and subsequently white grains entirely) out of my diet. Even though it will mean more calories per serving, I am going to try to switch to brown rice and whole grain / whole wheat grains when I have to have grains at all. It's definitely a food group I shouldn't be eating on a daily basis.
For sure about 99% of processed foods need to go. I need to start making my own food from fresh, raw ingredients again, even though it's a tricky to balance in my work schedule. I felt best when I was eating all fresh foods, and sticking mainly to lean meats and vegetables. This will meal taking the time to make casseroles and such from scratch rather than relying on Hamburger Helper overloaded with vegetables after I cook it. I say 99% because I figure from time to time I'm going to need things like cream of chicken, broth, etc etc if I'm going to cook something the least bit complicated, so for now I'm going to let those necessities slide.
So yeah. I feel like if I really want to see progress, it's got to be about more than just the calorie content of what I'm eating. Your body is your temple, you are what you eat, etc etc. I just remember after my body got over the initial shock of translating to a near all-Paleo diet, I started to feel absolutely fantastic. I miss that feeling, and think it's worth a shot to try and get it back again.
I'm feeling extremely excited and hopeful right now. Judging by how I've felt since yesterday, I think I finally have what it takes to take this last leg of my journey. As of now I've kept off 60 pounds I lost since starting this journey, and I would love to be able to lose that final 60 by September. And the great thing is when I sit here telling myself I can do it, I actually believe myself. It's been a long time since I can say that.
Hopefully this is the first of many future blogs about optimism and success. I can't wait to see what things I can accomplish, and hope and pray this sudden return of my Spark doesn't disappear as quickly as it returned!
Have a great weekend everyone! I hope you make great choices for yourself today!