Thursday, December 19, 2013
I love that movie, A League of Their Own, and especially this part where Tom Hanks' character is just beyond himself dealing with the emotions of his female players. I don't play baseball (or even watch it really), but December and 2013 has been full of curveballs:
- Decided to committ to getting healthy.
- Trip to Switzerland. : )
- Threw out my back. : /
- Was told that Jan 1 I'm getting a promotion and raise! :D
- Was also told that I'll be traveling more for work. : /(?)
- My husband & I decided to start looking into expanding our family! :D
- Researching foster/adopt & biological options. :O
- Fri the 13th my husband was told his company is closing down Jan 31st. : (
There have DEFINITELY been all kinds of tears in response to these different circumstances. And I don't know about any of you - but when I first really got committed to a healthier lifestyle, I felt like I needed to tackle this first and then deal with the rest of life. Perhaps subconsciously I think that if I get this area of my life "together", everything else will align. But the thing is, LIFE DOESN'T WAIT. There is always something to deal with, figure out, or just wait for it to pass.
So here I am, "only" having lost 15 of the 70-100 pounds I would like to lose and am facing a new job role, the uncertainty of my husband's employment, and the possibility of being a full-time mommy in the relatively near future - however that ends up happening. I turn 31 in two days and will have a house full of people next week for Christmas. Yes I would like to be at my goal weight, but I also recognize that all of these struggles and triumphs equip me for the next challenge. (Not that I see that in the MIDST - hindsight is 20/20 you know!) Talking about our future reminds me that life is too short to put off being healthy, facing the crushing disappointment of not hitting goals despite a lot of hard work and the victory of getting there by just sticking with it helps me keep a positive outlook on my husband finding work. Working out reminds me to "Just Keep Swimming" in many areas of life and curbing my negative self-talk helps me encourage others. As much as I'd sometimes like to think that I can isolate out my weightloss efforts, my habits and level of health are intertwined with all other aspects of my life because I now realize more fully that this isn't just some temporary race to the finish line......it is a part of me.