The Negativity is Winning
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Well, I'm feeling quite crappy today. :/
I left work early yesterday after putting in a good few hours working on my paralegal's evaluation. The concentration on the evaluation helped my headache a bit - random. Anyway, I planned to run 3 miles on the treadmill, but only did 1. Half way through my sinus pressure became much worse than it had been, and my stomach started cramping out of nowhere :/ It was not enjoyable, so I left. I went to Joann's Fabric to pick up the spray adhesive that I needed and a few other things, and then went home. I made gluten-free chocolate chip pancakes for dinner, because breakfast for dinner is yummy, and then eventually got around to adhering the fabric/batting for my the quilt and started free-motion quilting it. I spent about an hour and fifteen minutes doing the quilting and accomplished about a quarter of it. Throw-sized quilts take a long time, and because it was so large, I had the side rolled up to move it easier, and apparently I was death-gripping it and my right hand went numb at some point. Thats when I decided to stop. Then I read for a while before going to sleep, but between the quilting and reading I was feeling much less negative.
But I woke up in a bad mood again :/ I even slept better last night so I dont know. I had to drive to the Academy this morning to attend a meeting in which there would be a one star general and a three star general, so I fet obligated to wear my blues, which were actually in a clump on the floor. I threw them in the dryer and ironed them and they were presentable enough. But while I was making my bed, I stepped on my kindle, which I had set on the floor next to my bed last night before I went to sleep. I heard a "crack." I looked at it and physically it did not appear broken. Except the screen was distorted. Whatever cracked happened inside :( It was not readable. And my limited 1 year warranty does not cover stepping on it. *sigh* Great start to my morning.
I went to my meeting and it was in some aspects a waste of time because no one acknowledged me and I did not say anything. It was informative because I found out the legal office is not telling me information about my clients. *sigh* Not really in the mood to have that battle right now. J and I were trying to coordinate meeting up but my meeting ran late so I figured he had left. But he had actually waited in the parking lot for me. I had sent him my paralegal's evaluation draft for him to help me with and he gave me it back with writing all over it. So I kind of feel like I suck now (I've never had to do an evaluation for someone else before). He was on his way to a ski resort to spend the day/night with his sisters/brother-in-law/nephews
. I kind of felt jealous that he was going and I wasnt. I also apparently thought our Christmas plans were different from his Christmas plans for us, so I left feeling extremely annoyed and discouraged, when I shouldnt be because he sat in a parking lot for 40 minutes waiting to see me before he left. I just feel like I am not in a good place right now emotionally.
On my way back to work, I stopped at Best Buy and picked up a new Kindle. My old one was the very basic Kindle - not even the paperwhite version - and I bought the same exact model again. I really like it. It was also the last one Best Buy had in stock - they had a ton of Kindle Fires though, but I dont need that. I have an iPad. I just hate reading on the iPad. So, that was money I hadnt expected to spend, but I really cant imagine going away for a week without my Kindle. #firstworldproblems right? Then I was feeling sorry for myself so I stopped at Chipotle for lunch. Burrito bowl and chips with guac. Apparently my mind thought I would feel better if I ate a lot of food. My body disagreed and now all of this food is just sitting in front of me and I have no desire to eat it.
My Erin Condren life planner, that I orered like 2 weeks ago finally arrived this morning. I picked up the box and put it in my house before I left for work this morning - at least I will have something fun to play with when I get home. And then more quilting and dance class if I make it there. My sinuses are still giving me problems.
Meanwhile, I have like 2 issues going on at the Air Force Academy that I am not sure how to deal with them so I will need to talk to my leadership. I am apparently getting two new clients today. I still have to tweak this EPR. I found out a case that my client doesnt want to participate in is being recommended for a preliminary hearing. Why does all of this stuff happen right before I am going out of town for a week? Murphy's law?
Either way, I am super C.R.A.N.K.Y. today.