Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Well, after YEARS of ups and downs, I finally have come to the conclusion that I need to change myself if I want to lose weight and keep it off. I'm going to try the Beck Diet Solution, which is based on cognitive therapy. I actually started about 10 days ago, but did not keep up with the daily tasks like I'm supposed to, so I'm hoping that blogging each day here will help. I'll be starting over because I hate trying to play catch up. It's best to start from scratch sometimes. I won't, however, wait the recommended 2 weeks to start an actual diet plan. I haven't logged with WW in about a month now, so it's time to get back on the horse.
So Day 1 is basically a reflection of why you want to lose weight and you're supposed to read your little "advantages response card" a few times a day to remind yourself WHY you're doing this:
1) Feel sexy, want to be sexy (sorry, TMI)
2) Enjoy shopping for clothes, feel good about how I look, feel healthy and light, stop feeling so self-conscious.
That's the gist of it. I did not include anything to do with trying to have a baby. I have to separate the two, because trying to lose weight while trying to have a baby gets me down because of my infertility issues and trying to have a baby while trying to lose weight is difficult because I keep thinking I can't run too much, can't do crunches, can't eat restrictive diets....just in case. SO. I'm separating the two.
On that note, though, I have officially put adoption on the back burner. Zvika is more than happy to adopt, but only once we've exhausted all options of having our own. I won't ever change his mind. So it's on to IVF in the next few months.
I am so looking forward to Zvika's new job starting. He's now been told it won't be the 20th, but just "a few days after". Whatever. What's a few more days when we've waited this long? I just want my man home every day again!!!