Not fair! - updated
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
So I was suppose to get my measurements taken, body fat percentage measured, flexibility testing remeasured, etc tomorrow (Wednesday); however, my PT texted me today to say that the lead PT scheduled someone during the time that I was suppose to meet with him. So... it's not getting done until Thursday morning. I had mentally prepared myself for this tomorrow (see previous blog entry), I was going to weigh myself at home first before going to the gym (my first weigh in since prior to Thanksgiving!). I was really anxious/nervous about it, but I was going to deal. I was actually excited as well. Now? I have to wait until Thursday. I just really want to know my body fat percentage! Ugh!!
A problem - I'm off tomorrow (Wednesday) and I always tend to overeat on my off days. I know the problem is because I'm away from my normal routine, I'm not at work, I have time to just sit at home and eat. It's something I try to work on. I think if I eat a snack after working out, lunch around 1pm, a snack at work around 8:30 pm, and dinner around 12:30 am then I can replicate that at home. WRONG. For some reason, it's so hard for me to eat lunch around 1 and then not eat anything for 7 or 8 hours! Part of it is that I just don't eat lunch and immediately get my errands done instead. Another part of it is that I'm at home, drinking wine, enjoying my book/movie, and I think "food and wine go together! I must eat something yummy!" So I do. I am working on it though - it's a good thing I don't have a lot of off days!
So here is to trying to be awesome tomorrow so my weigh in on Thursday will be what I expect (I would hope to still be around 137, that's my WEIGHT goal). I know a bad eating day tomorrow won't affect body fat percentage (what I'm most interested in seeing!!), yet I still can't help myself in thinking that that number on the scale is equally important. I know it isn't. I know I'm suppose to be maintaing my weight and not losing right now, but after years of only focusing on that dreaded number, it's hard to focus on other numbers, even if they are more important :/
UPDATE: I slept in this morning, it was wonderful. My goal was to wake up early, get to the gym, do my ST routine, and then drive to the other gym's location to do my spin class. But I was thinking, I want to be "good" today, so I'll sleep. If I'm sleeping, then I'm not eating! So I fell back asleep for another hour and a half. Wonderful. I then did a quick(?) 25 minute run (I'm calling 25 minutes a quick run!?) with a lot of hills and an increased speed at the end. I did my ST routine, increased the weight on the assisted chin ups (woo!!) and then got on the elliptical for 20 minutes. So now It's a little after 1pm and I just finished my snack. I'm about to shower, read a little, look up graduate schools (ugh) and then leave around 4:30 to drive to the other gym to do a 5:30 spin class! I'm not going to be able to drink wine prior and if I get there early (can you say rush hour traffic!?!?) then I'll just hit up the elliptical first. It's going to be an active day for me!
But as I was doing my shoulder presses, I was checking myself out in the mirror, going "dang, I look good!". And then there is this guy at the gym, I honestly can't tell if he's gay or not... But we've spoken a few times. A few weeks ago, we were both doing a circuit that required the use of a machine, so we were sharing it. He told me, in a you're strong/flirtatious(??) sort of way that I could increase the weight. Today, we waved from across the gym. I don't even know his name, but.... I wish my gaydar was better! And while I was checking myself out in the mirror, I thought "what the measurements say tomorrow don't matter, what matters is that I'm here, getting stronger, and looking good". Hopefully I'll keep that mentality tomorrow!