Tuesday, December 17, 2013
One of my SparkFriends, Kristina was nice enough to go back and comment on my 100 Day blog, and it made me want to follow up on my 100 reasons I was getting healthy. So I figured I'd check to see how many I've accomplished so far in 2 years.
[X] 1. I REFUSE to buy a plus size wedding dress. Every school dance I went to was in a dress size 14 or above, and it really limited my options. So on the most important day of my life, Iím going to be in a single digit dress.
I'm going to go ahead and say that even though I bought a size 18 dress, it was from the regular section. And my broad ribcage and boobs, just aren't going anywhere. I will take comfort in the fact that my hips measured a bridal 10.
2. I want to get on the scale at the doctors office, and have the nurse put the first little weight on 100, and move the second weight up until its balanced. Being over 250 lbs, it was SO embarrassing to watch the nurse continually have to keep moving it up.
This hasn't happened yet, but they can put it on 150 and move it, so that's pretty awesome too.
3. I want to be an active mom. I donít have kids yet, but when I do, I want to be able to run outside and play with them without getting winded.
Obviously, I don't have kids yet, so all my parenting ones, will not get checked off for quite sometime, and I'm okay with that. But it is nice to know that I will have a much better chance at a healthy pregnancy now.
[X] 4. I want to be able to climb stairs without getting winded.
[X] 5. I want to fit comfortably in the desks at my school.
[X] 6. My knees and ankles constantly hurt from the extra weight they are forced to carry around.
My aches and pains now come from tough workouts, not just everyday tasks.
[X] 7. I want to feel good about myself.
This is an amazing one to be able to check off.
[X] 8. I donít want to be disgusted when I look in the mirror.
9. Iíd like to look good in a bathing suit.
I'm going to hold off until next summer to officially cross this one off.
[X] 10. I want to be able to share clothes with my friends.
Wore my friends medium dress out to the bars when I went to visit her in Indiana.
11. I want to look good for my high school reunions.
[X]12. Next time Iím on ESPN, Iíd like to look like a girlfriend, not an actual player in my jersey.
I didn't look like a lineman anymore, just a girlfriend, proudly representing #76 in the stands.
[X]13. I want to feel like I belong when I go to the gym.
[X]14. Iíd like to wear yoga pants and feel good about it.
I LOVE YOGA PANTS,
15. I want my WiiFit to have a normal size person and not play the obese tuba music.
I unfortunately sold my WiiFit, so I won't reach this one until I try it out at someone else's house.
[X]16. I want to be able to walk 18 holes on the golf course carrying my golf bag.
[1/2]17. I want to run a marathon.
Get it? Cause I did a half marathon?
18. I want to do an Ironman.
[X]19. Iíd like to be able to keep up with JD in pick up basketball.
[X]20. I donít want to feel like the fat friend in my group of friends when we go out.
[X]21. I want to be healthy.
22. I want to be a good role model for my children.
[X] 23. I want to shop in normal stores, not plus size.
24. Iíd like to have a flat stomach.
[X]25. People have told me Iíd never be able to do it.
I proved them wrong.
[X]26. Iíve told myself that Iíd never be able to do it.
I proved myself wrong.
[X]27. I want to get rid of my low-self esteem.
[X]28. I want to stop with the negative self-talk.
[X] 29. I want to stop praying to God that this will be easy on me.
[X] 30. I want to stop wishing I looked like every beautiful girl that passes me.
[X] 31. I donít ever want J.D. to be embarrassed of me.
J.D. was never embarrassed of me, but now I feel like he can be proud of me.
32. I donít ever want my children to be embarrassed of me.
[X]33. I donít want my weight to prevent me from getting a job.
34. I want to be able to fit on every roller coaster ride at every amusement park.
I haven't been to an amusement park since losing weight! But I need to go!
35. I want to be able to take my (future) dog on runs.
[X] 36. I want to be able to order clothes online without worrying too much that the size will fit correctly.
37. Iíd like to wear a sexy Halloween costume for once in my life.
[X] 38. I donít want to be embarrassed when my boyfriend tries to put his arms around my waist or tickle my stomach.
[X] 39. I donít want to feel like Iím breaking JDís back when he gives me a piggy back ride, or picks me up.
[X] 40. I want to feel good when Iím dancing.
[X] 41. For once in my life, I want to love myself completely, with all my flaws and imperfections.
[X] 42. I donít want to be so jealous when I see girls I think are beautiful.
[X] 43. I want to feel like enough.
[X] 44. I want to be hit on. I would never act on it, but Iíd like to feel attractive to more than just one person in my life.
This is no longer a goal. It's annoying and creepy. I regret this goal. Haha.
45. I want to be healthy enough to have a good and easy pregnancy.
46. Iíd like to get back into acting, but donít feel confident enough to audition for anything the way that I am now.
[X] 47. Iíd like to be able to shop in Victoriaís Secret.
[X] 48. Iíd like for my waist to be smaller than my bust.
49. I donít want my thighs to touch.
They still slightly touch, but just ever so slightly. Hoping the weight training will take care of it.
[X] 50. I donít want to have back fat hanging over my bra.
The majority of the back fat is gone!
51. I want to be able to rock climb.
52. I want to have a BMI of 22% or less.
[X] 53. Iíd like to sleep better.
[X]54. I donít want to wear a size 10 ring.
My engagement ring is a size 8.5 and I'm going to have to have it resized to an 8 pretty soon.
55. I donít want to have the flabby underarm I currently possess.
Still working on this...weight training will hopefully help.
[X] 56. Iím tired of my love handles.
Pretty much gone!
[X] 57. I want to be able to wear a button-down shirt and not have it pull and budge.
[X] 58. Iíd like to ride a bicycle for more that a few miles without my butt hurting.
[X] 59. I want to run on a treadmill without feeling like a Clydesdale.
[X] 60. Iíd like to take fitness classes like yoga or pilates without feeling like a fish out of water.
[X] 61. I want to be able to keep up with my friends when they work out.
[X] 62. I want to run stadium stairs while I watch JDís practices.
[X] 63. I want to be able to go into clothing stores for smaller girls without getting stares from the clerks.
64. Iíd like to sing the National Anthem at an event and look good doing it.
[X] 65. I want peopleís first instant impression to be, tall, or pretty, or kind, or funnyÖ not OVERWEIGHT.
This is just a guess, but most people tell me I don't seem overweight any more so I'm crossing that one off.
[X] 66. I want other people to ask me what Iíve been doing, so I can spread my Spark.
[X] 67. I want to be a Spark People Success Story.
[X] 68. I want to have amazing before and after pictures.
69. I want to write a book or articles about my experience to inspire those who feel they canít do it.
I still want to do this. Just have to figure out how.
70. Iíd like to eventually lead a fitness course and help others get in shape.
[X] 71. I want to be able to cook delicious healthy meals for my family.
J.D. might argue about just how delicious they are...lol.
[X] 72. I want to make my parents proud.
73. I want to be able to waterski and actually stand up (never been successful).
74. I want to ride a horse without feeling bad about how much I weigh.
75. I want to jump off a diving board without feeling like all eyes are on me.
[X] 76. I want to be happy.
[X] 77. I want to be able to drive past fast food without thinking of every item Iíd buy there.
[X] 78. I want to go out to eat and be able to order without feeling like my waitress is judging me.
[X] 79. I want to be able to talk in class without being embarrassed about how I look or what clothes Iím wearing.
[X] 80. I want to buy clothing that doesnít include the word ďLARGE.Ē
[X] 81. Iíd like to wear shorts and feel good about my legs.
[X] 82. I want to go shopping and not be embarrassed to come out and look in the 180-degree mirrors.
[X] 83. I want to take pictures without having to think about tilting my head up to get rid of my double chin or sucking in my stomach.
84. I want to be able to do 100 pushups.
[X] 85. Iíd like to have a positive relationship with mirrors. Currently, Iím not a big fan.
J.D. now has to tell me to stop looking in them. He says I'm going to break them as often as I use them.
86. Iíd like to have a waist under 30Ē.
Getting closer. Right around 31-32 right now.
[X] 87. I donít want hills or stairs to discourage me from going places. Iím on a walking campus and find myself being lazy.
[X] 88. I donít want to be hot and sweaty all the time. Being overweight has made me overheat in a lot of situations.
I'm freezing. All the time. But I'm okay with that.
89. I want to live to see my great grand children.
[X] 90. I donít want to have to wear a girdle anymore.
[X] 91. I want to be able to sit down without noticing my stomach rolls.
[X] 92. I want to feel like Iíve finally accomplished a goal I set for myself.
[X] 93. I want to be able to forget/forgive the people who have said mean things about me because of my weight.
[X] 94. I want to stop feeling out of control of my life.
[X] 95. I want to pursue things that I felt embarrassed to do because of my weight.
[X] 96. I want to play soccer again, just for fun, and be faster and better than I was when I quit.
I was born to play forward. But I still love playing goalie too. But so much fun.
[X] 97. I want my parents to get healthier with me.
They are trying. They haven't always had the easiest time, but they are trying.
[X] 98. I want to develop habits I can pass on to my children.
[X] 99. I want to be remembered as a happy and healthy successful woman.
I can only hope this is the legacy I leave.
[X] 100. I want to make up for 21 years of being unhappy and hating the person I was. I want the majority of my life to be spent happy and loving who I am.
Although I've only been on this journey for 2 years, I am sure that I will be happy and loving who I am for the rest of my life.
So thank you Sparkpeople for helping me cross 72.5 things off my list in my first 2 years. I can't wait to complete the rest.
Love you Sparkfriends!