Tuesday, December 17, 2013
I'm serious. Tuesdays are like Mondays, but kind of worse. I mean, you expect Monday to be a pain - you just came back from a weekend off, you're moaning and groaning about having to get back into the swing of waking up early etc. But then Tuesdays are worse. Because they feel almost exactly the same - I mean, you still have 3 more days to go after Tuesday is over, but you cant use the Monday excuse of "oh, I just had 2 days off.." Tuesdays are just the blah days. Wednesdays are exciting because "woah, you're 1/2 way there!" and then Thursdays are almost like Fridays - just one more day! And then of course we all like Fridays. But yeah... I think Tuesdays might be the worst. Just saying.
Yesterday after work I went to the gym and got in my run! It felt great to run again, and since I am feeling better, I didnt have any trouble breathing either! Glad I ended up taking all of that rest time from running. I had planned on 3 miles, but I was feeling so great that I did 4 at a nice, easy pace. It felt fantastic! But then I lost all energy and was ready to go to sleep! Sadly, I had to get some quilting done - which was kind of the last thing I wanted to do. But I got out the backing fabric for my mom's quilt and cut it and sewed it togehter (I had to sew two pieces together to make it the correct width and length), and then I cut the batting to the correct size. And then I got out my trust spray adhesive, so that I could adhere quilt top/batting/backing together. And halfway through adhering the batting and backing together my spray adhesive can went empty :( I never even got the quilt top either. By this time it was 8pm and I was not going back out to the store. So now the fabric is just lying on my living room floor. At some point I will need to get to the store for some spray adhesive today and finally get it all adhered together so that I can begin the quilting.
At this point though, last night, I was feeling pretty stressed. I mean, this totally put a wrench in my plans and I had to just accept the fact that though I am certain I will get my mom's quilt done this week, I do not think I will have the time to finish my grandma's. And that's her Christmas present!! So, I called my mom to ask her what I should do (she doesnt know I am also making her a quilt) and she said to take a picture of the quilt top and give it to her and tell her that when I finally finish it I will mail it to her - and to get her something small so she at least gets something on Christmas. So that is what I will do. I know my grandma will love it when it's finally done. She loves home made things. And with that, I felt much less stressed! And I climbed into bed and started a new book to help me relax before I finally fell asleep.
I guess I am getting better at managing the stress in my life after all.
Also, my mom is doing ok. She is more and more tired each day, which is directly a result from the chemo. But she is taking her pain medicine and her sleeping pills, and finally seems to be taking everything one day at at time. Her hair continues to fall out and so she said she will have to start wearing her wig all of the time soon, and though this still upsets her immensely, she is trying really hard to stay positive and really know that if that's the worst thing that happens to her, then she is very lucky. It was nice to not hear her crying last night.
I am excited to be heading back to NJ on Sunday to be with my family. Really, I miss my dog terribly and I will be so happy when we are reunited. I think she will be, too! My mom said she keeps waiting at the door for me to come home! Also, I am excited to spend Christmas Eve with my family. Since I was born, we have always spent Christmas Eve with my mom's side of the family. We have dinner, open presents from the extended family, have dessert, play games. It's my favorite family gathering of the year. I missed it last year, and though J and I had a really nice Christmas Eve together, just the two of us, I am looking forward to family shenanigans this year.
I am still bummed that J and I arent spending Christmas or our anniversary together this year. I mean, realistically, I know the reasons are good - we both have family things going on, so I cant really be upset or mad about it. I guess just disappointed. His sisters came to town on Sunday and are skiing this week, but will be back to town later this week. I think I will finally get to meet them.
Planning to spend the rest of today working on my paralegal's evaluation. I have dance class tonight, too.