During the month of December, the focus is often to be generous and give to others... Over the last few months I have been neglecting one person : me. My stress level lead me to the point that I had to go see the doctor last week because I was feeling too weak to function. I was given two days off.
After a discussion with a friend, I realized that I do a lot of things because "I have to"... or so I think...
I have to shift this mentality and start doing thing because it is FUN - and if I do my "I have to" I should allow myself to be rewarded - but not with food. In fact, food has been a source of reward of punishment for so long that it was difficult to think of WHAT could be my reward.
So my ME TIME for the rest of this month is MY REWARD. If I take time for myself, even if I get "less" done, it is ok, I need to look after me if I want to keep going without burning out.
Today's ME TIME was a 90 min Hot Yoga session. It was fantastic! I am so happy that I am back at the studio, not only it is good for my mind but it is a great way to cross train. The studio I found also offers different classes such as spinning and kikkasana (body weight lifting) - it is challenging fun! I think by doing less running - for now 3x/week - I will be a better runner!
I see this as my reward for making it to the qualification for the Canadian Forces National Running Championship for marathon - with my last event : The International Niagara Falls marathon last October. (With my 3h36 min I also qualify for Boston 2015!) But - if I want to be able to repeat this, I needed some time to recover and I need some sleep. I think I am back on track now.
Today, I took the time to track my distance for the year, to organize my training log and I printed out a training schedule. I looked back at some of my blogs and I realized that Spark is a great way to track my successes and see how much I have improved. I also notice that I did not have the time to do a blog about my race.
oh... and my reward for this one is, beside the grin on my face with my medal
... I bought all the professional pictures... So here is a few and what I can remember.
My first half was nice and went as planned... 1h42. (A little bit slower that my average pace for a 13.1 but 26.2 is definitively not the same as doing 2X 13.1! This caption was taken around the 19k marker - I was still smiling!)
At 14 miles, my right knee started to twinge, like really bad. I did not want to stop as I knew my mom was waiting for me with water and gel one mile further... My first stop was at 15 miles. I walked for about 100 meters with my mom.
My step father took this picture. I was so happy to see them - their support truly made a difference in my performance. I love this picture - this is one of my favorite!
When I left them - I struggled a bit to get back to my pace. My knee was really slowing me down. I pushed it through because I knew they were going to be there at the 21 miles marker. So I did not allow myself to stop until that next point. I had to make it - I trained really hard and I wanted to make the timings.
I got to them 2 minutes behind "schedule"... At that point, I had to stop running, walk and stretch it by doing lunges. I threw away one of my layers and I was doing a mental countdown.
My smile was gone but my determination and endurance paid off. The last 3 miles were painful. My mantra was a phrase that one of my friend told me - it is going to hurt and it is going to be worth it!
My only focus was one more step.
Update on my goals:
17 day streak - 2 days off track but tracking.
Drinking plenty of water
Back at the gym and the yoga studio
Thinking positive - working on it!
Sleeping 5hours/night - working on it but improving!
Have a great week - 4 more days before Break!