Monday, December 16, 2013
I fell off the wagon awhile back and have been pretty much on a plateau since. My plateau was located in the gutter looking at the underside of the wagon.
Over the last few months, I feel like I slipped down the drain hole and am looking up at the underside of the gutter.
I was reading blogs and someone was talking about having a rough time getting back on the wagon. I commented that I was able to understand and that I wished that I had something profound to say, but I don't really know what to say right now to be all inspirational and sparky.
This is my realization for today.
The newest ruckus in the house is that my nephew wants to join the Army.
Don't get me wrong, he most likely would benefit from a very structured life. He had ADHD and is a typical hormonal teenager. He will go out of his way to disagree with anyone and everyone who is older than he is.
So...earlier, he starts a conversation with his mom with this sentence... "Mom, you know how lazy I am, right?"
Don't get me wrong, he is not over weight, but for being 17, he is out of shape and while he will go toss a football occasionally, his normal after school activity from 3 p.m. until bedtime is playing PS3 or watching YouTube.
Earlier today, he asked me if I had any dumbbell weights, I told him that no, I don't because they are not in my budget currently but he can use anything that has a little weight to it, even a can of soup, but he said he doesn't want anything 'stupid', he wants a 30 pound set of weights....
Both my sister and I pointed out that you don't START training like that, you build up to it....and that's when the arguing started.
I realize that I have a LOT of good information in my head but although I have different reasons than my nephew, I don't even take my own advice so why should he?
I have retyped this sentence so many times now because I am fighting the urge to tear myself down right now, and that is NOT why I am posting this blog.
I was one of those who weighed myself daily. I haven't weighed in for the last two weeks because I am afraid of what I KNOW the scale is going to show.
Tomorrow, my first step is to get on and see where I am at. For me, I need to know where I am starting from because I need the positive reinforcement of seeing the scale budge...but I need to know where I am at right now.
Sometimes I forget the simple things...one of them being right on my signature in the forums; 'One step and then the next gets you where you are going'
That's where I am headed, on to my next step.