Monday, December 16, 2013
So I met with my personal trainer today and it turns out we were suppose to do measurements and body fat percentage... but, of course, I did cardio beforehand so the body fat percentage reading would be inaccurate. So now I have to wait until Wednesday to know! Ugh!
But I'm actually really nervous about it. I know my body fat percentage will be down, I mean, how can it not be? Doing ST 3x/week for 5 weeks? The measurements? Well, hopefully they'll be down. The scale is what I'm most concerned about. I don't want to say I'm still recovering from Thanksgiving, but mentally I am. I haven't weighed myself since, I'm scared to. I don't want to know. I'm debating if I want to weigh myself on my own scale on Wednesday before going - just to know. I'm not sure if they're going to do blood pressure and heart rate as well, but I know it'll be elevated due to the stress of having to be weighed. I suppose I could just weigh myself Wednesday, stress and all. I know I'm not suppose to be focusing on losing weight, I'm actually not suppose to according to my PT (theoretically, that is). But I still want to. Ok, I know it isn't about the number on the scale anymore, but I really just want to have that flat stomach! I want my belly button to be visible and I want the pouch to go away. That's all I really want. Yes, having smaller thighs would be nice, yes having that perfect hourglass figure would be amazing, but all I want is to have a visible belly button, that's when I know I would have met my goal. The only way I can see that happening is for more weight to come off, but like my PT has said, it's about lowering body fat. If that's going to get rid of the pouch and roll, then that's awesome. I just don't see how I can lose body fat but not lose weight? I suppose it's the whole gaining muscle thing at the same time.
I'm just going to suck it up and weigh myself Wednesday. Then I'll be prepared to see my PT. I can do this. It's just a number...