Monday, December 16, 2013
I regained 2 lbs last week but worst of all I went AWOL. Usually I do not respond this way with a gain. There were a few things that set me off-track. The first was 9 1/2 hour workdays, another was not feeling well, another was snowdays, and all this with Lavinia leaving to go to her fatherís for the holidays on Thursday, just threw me off.
With snowstorms, comes snow days (pancakes for breakfast and sweets throughout the day, alcohol perhaps Ė basically we had a tradition of indulgence when we are cooped inside due to the weather.)
We celebrated Christmas yesterday because it was the last time everyone was going to be home before Lavinia leaves for the Christmas holiday on Thursday. What is Christmas dinner, if we are not together? It turned out to be another snowstorm. My sisterís family were not able to come because of the weather but we still had turkey and unwrapped presents. We then played Trivial Pursuit and cards throughout the night as we regularly do on snow days.
I donít believe there is anything wrong with an indulgence here and there throughout the holidays but the reality is that I have gotten out of my healthy lifestyle routine. I have not tracked, I have not exercised, I did drink alcohol and had sweets - and had a great time doing it. Does this mean that I am giving up? Not at all! Life is about balance. There are choices. I chose to track everything and work hard throughout the year. I chose to celebrate with my family for the past week. The only thing I regret is the not tracking part as I really have no idea how many calories were consumed. I have two more days until Lavinia leaves and will not be going to the gym because I work long hours in that time and will spend as much time with her as possible until she is on her way. I will however track my food starting today and will return to the gym on Thursday.
My shifts at work are very long this week and the past one and are taking their toll on me. Perhaps one of the reasons I stopped tracking? It will come to an end and then I am back to regular hours and have some vacation time during the holidays. I will take a few days off but also have lots of paperwork to do so I wonít be bored. I would really like to do some reading. I never read a book since I took this temp contract. It was interesting, and I enjoyed it but I am also ready for it to end as well.
BLC is also coming to an end and I feel bad that I am not finishing strong. I did lose weight but anticipated more involvement until I took my temp job. It would have been easier, but I now have new experiences and potentially new work opportunities as well. The thing is, I canít wait for the best opportunity and perfect conditions to lose weight, because I will be waiting forever.