Thursday, December 12, 2013
Gets so annoying when so many things go wrong that you end up stuffing your face.. it's like the impulse control just goes bye-bye in the face of stress. I seem to only be able to not overeat for a couple of weeks at a time and then it's back again. Stupid reasons too.. really no excuse for it. I can see it coming that at the end of the week we are going to the in-laws for pizza.. no way to really make that healthy, so I thought that will be my one free meal for this week. Okay so that's like a moderate way to work in an indulgence, sounds sensible...
But then today went all pear shaped. Firstly the kids school was cancelled due to ice. My daughter refused to go to the gym daycare so I didn't go to the gym, missed body pump and cx works and I was really looking forward to it. Refusing to be beaten I did a Gillian Michaels youtube abs workout. It was pretty good.
But then things went wrong. My son fell off the bed and hit his head on a closet door edge so he got a mild concussion. He had to sit still the whole rest of the day. So I had the afternoon with 2 kids all alone sitting inside, couldn't go anywhere or do anything.. longest afternoon of my life. went on and on and on. I had some chocolate chips and some overripe bananas so I thought I'd make some healthy (or at least sugar free) muffins with my daughter for fun. Unfortunately I ended up eating like 5 of them. And then my usual chocolate. Ugh. Gosh, maybe an excess 500 calories? Quite possibly more.. And they weren't even that good because they were just a teensy bit undercooked. Ack!
Nice to know after years and years on Sparkpeople, all that weight lost, calories burnt and muscles built at the gym I still have absolutely no self control over sweets under stress. And I am still pre-diabetic. *sigh* Gee I wonder why when I just ate like 200 grams of carbs in a few hours. Worse my parents are coming to visit and though I swear every time they come I won't do it we end up drinking beer every night with him. Gosh I so just can't do that to myself after all the way I've come, right?