As you may know, I have 2 children - ages 5 and 7, I'm married to my best friend for 14 years and I turned 40 this year.
My baby is currently sick with a viral infection. We've taken her to the doc twice thus far hoping the doc would tell us differently, but no... so we just have to wait it out. I'm really fine with that, but boy does it take a lot out of me b/c she can get clingy at times. I love her and when she's sick, she is very snugly. What is the difference between her snuggle times and her clingy times - I'm not sure, maybe it's really about my own mood. (HA! and I smile now.)
Anyway, last night I got my bowl of spaghetti and went to my room to watch my one and only show - Biggest Loser. Sure I watch other things with the family - but those are their choices... this one is my choice.
This season Ava has decided that she would like to give me the same courtesy I give to everyone else and watch my show with me instead of going to the living room TV or her own bedroom TV to watch another show... She's is too grown up right?
Last night, she came with me in my bedroom with me. We discussed the players and who she thought would win or lose this week. It was quite endearing even though I don't believe she fully understands the show. And where I want to explain it more to her, I always talk myself out of it b/c I strongly feel that a 5 year old should be too involved in a weight loss show. So I just let it all be and enjoy my mother-daughter time, even though it is TV.
On with my own growth in my SP and weight loss journey. Earlier this week I had my annual phiscal where I discussed (AGAIN) my concerns with my weight to my doc. We discussed some ideas there and I recalled them during the show as I watched a couple of the ladies work out hard. I didn't get up and exercise... but instead I thought to myself, if these people can do it, so can I. Right Belinda? Right?!!! Yes, I got a little snippy with myself.
Some of these women weigh less than I do now, even though they were all heavier than me at the beginning of the show. Other women are w/in a few pounds of me - those are the women I'm resonating with today. I have decided that I want to feel those muscles under the fat instead of just remembering them there. Then once I start feeling them, I'll want to show them off - and the cushion above them will begin to shed away too. But first things first - I have to build those muscles.
Yes, I will concentrate on building my muscles, but I know that with every muscle fiber I strengthen, the more efficient it will become... so that in itself will help me burn the calories i take in. I also know that the more I work out the less likely I want to eat bad and I'll want drink more water instead of my usual Dr. Pepper.
So for the rest of this month, I'm going to work on strength training instead of losing weight.