NOT a good day!!
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
This was an awful day, I know I was going to stay off mostly but just have to get this out of my system.
Today would have been my husband's 93rd BD, and it has been two years today since I lost him. That plus the loss of our daughter in Sept. made it a tearful day. I could not get myself in control. I came in here to send a birthday message and neither the computer or phones were woriing! Cell phone deader than a door nail.(another weird saying) had no way to contact anyone. ...Husband was dead and then I find my computer and phones dead!!
It is too bad that one cannot handle these things without going to pieces. Perhaps some of it was an inherited problem. My mom had a what they then called a "nervous breakdown" when I was 7. I can remember so clearly her telling me to "go to the field and get your dad" after that plans were made to leave MN and come here to the San Fernando Valley, CA.
I have so many blank spots in the memory part of my brain, yet odd things will come to mind and things I really wish I could remember are not there, like a family reunion in '09 that I have no remembrance of it. A dear niece sent my pictures of activities with different relatives, what a blessing to be able to at least see who attended.
OK, not really something that I should have made a point to share, but you all are like my family and I hope some have a bit of interest in my past,and present!! Sending much love to our Spark team, have a great rest of the week.