Tuesday, December 10, 2013
When I registered for BLC24, and asked to remain with Azure Destinations, I started to think about what the BLC meant and had done for me, and what I had learned since I first started on BLC22.
I started the BLC with Azure, and have stayed an Azurite. After initial concerns whether I could cope with it, I settled in, and found a strong caring team that fitted me like a glove. I wouldnít want to leave them. This round, being my second, having got my feet under the table, I have learned a lot.
I NEED the scale! One of my concerns when I started was with the weekly weigh in, as I know that I am an obsessive person, who can become fixated on the numbers, which then take on an importance they donít really have. For years I have been saying to anyone who will listen, that itís not all about the numbers, itís about how I feel in my skin, how my clothes fit etc, and thatís all very true, BUT, and itís a big but, my easy going, laid back personality that can ignore what is going on in the mirror, and is an expert at not seeing what is obvious to everyone else, who can chuck the scales under the bed and not use them for months, well, that all contributed to me becoming the 220+lbs person that I was when I originally joined Spark.
I have learned that I need that weekly weigh in, but not to take it too seriously, lots of things can upset that number. Itís merely a tool.
I NEED the structure. Although I have exercised for the last couple of years, it has been sporadic. I will seize upon any excuse not to do it, and I donít push myself. Although Azure doesn't have the same challenges as the other teams, (we do however always have others), when weíre traveling, we take on their challenges. I love the TNTís, the weekend challenges, and the LCWís. It hauls me out of bed and gets me to the gym. It gets me in the pool after, it sends me off to karate, when I really would rather not, just to gain extra points for my team!
I needed to be more flexible in my attitudes. I started out in round 22, thinking ĎIím not doing thisí and ĎI canít do thatí and have gradually found myself doing all sorts of things. participation not perfection, is the phrase, and itís meant wholeheartedly. If you are physically not capable of doing something, you can modify it until you can at least try.
I love meeting the other teams and visiting them. I meet lots of different personalities, and make friends and see how they do things. it is fascinating, and I can do anything if itís just for the week! (except I draw the line at jogging!)
I NEED CI/CO. Azure is a team that doesnít use this, and as I love Azure as it is, and would be sad if it changed, I am very glad of it, but I had never even heard of it before recently visiting the Outlaws. I have always resisted calorie counting, not only does it take a lot of time, but it doesnít work for me, because Iím set an unrealistically high calorie limit which I then eat Ďupí to. Then I gain weight!. CI/CO though worked! It was a revelation, my BMR was calculated much closer to what I calculate it to be, and if I Ďsavedí 3,500 calories over a week, guess what, I lost a pound! Simple as that! and as I can calculate over a weekly, rather than a daily target, I get less Ďtaken overí by it too. It's just another tool.
I would never have found or tried that if not for the BLC, and independently, will keep on using it.
I NEED Azure! My journey through SP has been littered with teams joined, briefly flirted with, and discarded. This one is different. if I only had one team on SP, and in actuality, I only visit this one, it will be Azure. A no apology, no blame, no criticism zone. I have learned to be honest. Because nobody criticises me, I no longer need to be defensive, whatever I have done or not done, someone else on the team has been there before. I can be proud of my successes, and simply acknowledge my failures. We are a close knit team, without exception.
Itís always interesting, I have never been bored by it. My team chat thread, and the thread of the team I am visiting, are the first things I check in the morning and the last I look at at night.
So, at the end of BLC24, I will sign up with Azure again for round 25Ö.and 26Ö..27...... ad infinitum as far as I can see at the moment.
Perhaps I will meet you there on one of the teams.