Monday, December 09, 2013
I am back on track after my gain over Thanksgiving. I dropped six pounds this past week! Jillian Michaels kicking my butt with Body Revolution is definitely helping. I am proud of myself for not using Thanksgiving and the gain as an excuse to overeat and throw in the towel. I forced myself to focus on the good points of the week - like getting in all my exercise that week - and worked really hard to counteract the gremlin voice in my head that just loves to harp on all the ways I mess things up.
I also really appreciate all the encouragement and support that fellow Sparkers have sent my way. This journey has highs, lows and moments of frustration and I really love that we're all there for each other in those times.
My current issue that I'm trying to face is that of clothes and what to keep packed away for now and what to donate. No matter how determined I feel and how much I believe this time is different, there is a voice in my head that is scared to death that this won't stick. So I can't donate my clothes even though they're too big because what if I need them again!
I don't want to think like that, but at the same time, I can't afford to buy clothes all over again if the issue arises. I'm torn. I think for now, I just might put them in some storage tubs to clear out my closet, but hold onto them. How have others dealt with this issue? I know this is one of the mental sides to the journey and that I should simply focus on the good...but these worries creep in.
I have entered week three of Jillian Michaels Body Revolution. I technically did weeks 1 & 2 workouts for two and a half weeks because I didn't pay attention to the schedule and did other workouts instead a few days. I did two full weeks as she listed and have just entered week three.
Holy crap! I'm pretty sure she's trying to kill me. I don't want to give up on this, but I'm also not feeling very strong and fit for this one. Workout 3 was brutal and I had to do a lot of personal modifications for positions since I'm still really heavy...and even with that, I managed to do about three standing-to-plank moves in the time her and her athletes did ten to twelve.
My plan is to stick with it for this week and see how it goes with workout four and the second time with workout three. The first two weeks were hard, but I was able to do the moves...this one I'm struggling with. I don't want to hurt myself, but I also don't want to quit just because it's tough.