Monday, December 09, 2013
I have been having quite a bit of difficulty lately with Sparking in general.
But on further examination today, it is apparent that the difficulty isn't Sparking, or eating, or any other issue upon which I can pass off my challenges. I am having difficulty with ME.
I just had to get that out. I cannot...and may choose not to...expand on what any of that means...but I had to admit it to myself and say it out loud. This simple fact is true...I have been lying to myself about how to deal with my new financial reality. I am experiencing a spiritual void for having closed The Soap Box. And both of those issues are tied up together in any effort to move forward and pursue my passion. I have been running away from that reality...from the effort it will entail to come up with a workable and satisfactory plan...and from my own doubts and fears.
THAT'S why I avoid Spark.