I'm so excited to be a part of Sparkpeople and letting you all in on my "mission" to get there. I don't like to say journey for some reason, probably because I have heard everyone describe it as such. I see it as a process and yes.... a journey.... but I understand I have a huge goal to reach but I have to conquer my small goals first.
First off, I have been overweight ever since I hit puberty, I thought it was because I started eating pretty bad and not exercising as much but it was not until I turned 22 that I learned it was also because of my hormones and the fact I have PCOS. Throughout my entire adolescence, I tried working out and stuff but the weight just would not come off. On top of that, I didn't have a very good support system. In time I just accepted the fact that I was overweight and moved on with my life.
It was not until I started dating when I was 19, that I thought about losing weight seriously. I was dating this guy who was in the National Guard and he had left for training for six months. He claimed he liked me for me but when he wrote letters he would constantly express how he couldn't wait to see the new me. I felt so much pressure but when he returned, I hardly lost any and started to treat me differently and in turn I broke up with him. I realized afterwards that I needed to lose weight for ME no one else.
After the breakup, I completely isoloated myself and started gaining more weight due to the fact of the new job I got and the lack of movement I did working there. It didn't help matters that I would eat whole pizzas by myself!!
My family was worried about me and one day I realized that I needed to make myself a first priority. I stopped looking for boyfriends, I started focusing on what career I wanted to do for myself. Once I stopped looking for my special someone, he showed up not expecting it to end up where it is today.
I first met my boyfriend working at my part-time job at a local pizza joint, I knew of him, (we hardly we scheduled together) and if I did work with him, we would never really speak to each other. It wasn't until my former boss started to schedule us together on Sunday nights that this guy started talking to me. Eventually he made it pretty clear he was liked me and thanks to one of our co-workers we started dating.
Barely a month into our relationship, I was rushed to the hospital because of horrible pain I was experiencing. It turned out I had this huge cyst and if I didn't get it removed soon, I would probably wouldn't be able to have children. My boyfriend stood by my side and in December of 2009, I had surgery to get the cyst removed. Doctors told me then that I had PCOS and if I didn't make changes now, the chances of me having children would be none. My boyfriend then told me that he cared about me and he didn't care about what size I am but he did care about my health and he wanted me to be healthier. He also said he'd do the same.
Four years into our relationship, he had to move to a different state.( We are in a Long-distance relationship right now) Although I had made some changes to my diet, I know I can kick this up a notch. So here I am!
I need to reach my long-term goal of losing at least 50 pounds and my biggest motivations right now is getting to see my boyfriend in the summer and surprising him, and my best friend's wedding in October and my younger sister's wedding the year after that!
I realize it's not going to be easy and it will take time but for my health, it will be worth it!!
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