Sunday, December 08, 2013
Ok, I've been around long enough to know that life has it's ups and downs, but lately, I feel like the changes are coming way too fast & furious! But the cool thing is that I can see God showing up everywhere, sometimes when I least expect Him to and when I need him the most.
There was a fire that destroyed my son's classroom right before Thanksgiving. A horrible tragedy, but the community has come together in a truly inspirational sort of way and so many good hearted individuals and businesses have donated money, time and school supplies. It's been an emotional couple of weeks dealing with the aftermath but I am astounded by the generosity of people and the tenacity of the school, teachers & students who are struggling to find normalcy again.
Next, my work is causing me tremendous amounts of stress. I have reached a point where I no longer think I can stay with my current company. I have been struggling for about
a year since they laid off one of my direct reports. I have gained almost 30 lbs - a result of stress and lack of exercise. I feel like if I stay where I am, I'll be setting myself up for either a nervous breakdown or a heart attack. I'm not exaggerating, I do have a few co-workers who provide comic relief but overall, the atmosphere is a life-sucking experience.
So, I met with a friend for lunch a couple of weeks ago. I haven't seen her in months and just felt like I needed to touch base with her for some reason. She recommended a place for me to check for a job that I hadn't thought of before. I got home that night, checked the site and saw a job posting that wasn't really a perfect fit, but was something that I could do given my education and background. It's in a completely different industry than what I'm in now and I know that the job market is very competitive, but I figured I had nothing to lose by submitting the on line application. So glad I had that lunch date - I have an interview for the job this coming Friday. I'm tying not to get too excited about it but it's hard not to have my letter of resignation ready to go!!
Whether I get the job or not, I know that the path that I'm on is where I'm supposed to be and I will handle anything that I have to but I really, really want this job. Actually, I'm not sure that I really want the job or if it's more of really, really, NOT wanting the job that I'm in now. Either way is fine, I trust God to point me in the direction that I'm supposed to be and if that means staying where I am, or switching careers at 44 years old, well then I'll do it.
So all this Heavy, emotional stuff is happening and then a major storm rolls in on Friday night dumping about 10 inches of snow on my house. I live at an elevation where we average a few snow storms each year but they're maybe 3 or 4 inches at the most. So the power goes out for about 10 hours, we have no heat, it's dropping down to about 48 degrees INSIDE my house and my son wants to play outside soooo bad but I'm afraid to let him because when he comes back in, I wouldn't be able to warm him up! I'm starting to think we're going to have to go to a warming shelter and I'm having the beginnings of a meltdown, the tears are coming and I'm pretty sure I won't be able to stop them. 10 minutes later the power comes back on! Thank you God! He does now how much you can handle!!
So no matter the ups and downs, I am feeling very thankful for all that I have. I am truly blessed, no matter what life throws my way, I will make it through it and I have faith that I will be stronger for it in the end.