Sunday, December 08, 2013
I need to vent. I am getting ready to take the Nursing Boards test this week and I am so overwhelmed. All I do is study and eat, eat and study. I am so scared of failing I just freak out on everyone constantly. I don't think of anything but the NCLEX and I have even started dreaming of it. I am trying to imagine passing but then I start to think I am jinxing myself. I passed my exit and got a predictor score of 98% on my ATI but that was months ago. What do I do? I feel like I can"t even tell people I'm testing b/c if I fail I will be humiliated. I don"t take time to take care of me right now b/c anything I do will be a distraction from this test. I am just terrified of letting my family down. I pray and pray and try to focus but the anxiety just attacks me. I need to relax but figure after I test I will do that. Either I will pass or fail and there isn't much I can do other than accept that but easier said than done. So, I will just keep venting until it's over.