Sunday, December 08, 2013
It's been a busy last month. I got the insane idea to remodel my kitchen. Aside from the paint, paint brushes, and vinyl tiles we bought, all the wood was found for free and ta-da brand "new" kitchen for around $60.
Today is supposed to be a day off but, I'll probably end up setting myself on a chore spree when I make lunch, and some homemade pasta. I already have ideas rattling around in my brain like...dishes, sweeping, need to use up the bananas. *Sigh* and I just want to relax. Meh, moving is burning calories.
Recap/Update: I have been steadily losing for a year. When I complained about terrible fatigue, depression and crazy weight fluctuations all the doctor could find was a triglyceride level of 37 which depending on sources is either fantastic as Dr. believes"that is an extremely heart healthy level and will straighten out when you finish your weight loss" but lots of other sources think it's bad. He even seemed to be in the mindset I'm not depressed because I am competent, cheerful, and level headed.
I miss the desire to have communication with other human beings...I'm stuck in deep anti-social ways. I'm hoping this doesn't become permanent. My husband and family have been complaining about my lack of communication. I honestly have no clue what's up with it but, I just haven't had much of anything to say to anyone.
Also, I'm not doing good on exercise, with my lack of social interaction hubby is requiring more of my time making it harder for me to feel like squeezing in a few minutes here and there with my already lacking motivation. With my odds and ends tasks around the house I've let my eating slip up some making lots of "fast" meals that are not balance (see, pasta with just garlic or an entire bag of california blend veggies w/ soy sauce and ginger). I've had sporadic weight changes (up and down) and fatigue. I've gone back to eating meat, but aiming two days a week of forcing meatless meats on hubby. Fresh vegetables and fruit are just a touch harder for me to come by at the moment as I've been working with lack of seasonal things in rural b.f.e and a lower food budget.
I've also been consuming sugar again. For some reason my blood sugar keeps going low even after eating higher carb things. This morning I had cinnamon roll oatmeal (1/4 cup steel cut oats, splenda brown sugar, molasses, cinnamon, topped with cream cheese glaze), and a piece of stone ground wheat toast. Carbs and sugar! One hour prior to eating this my blood sugar was 70 and I had yet to even take my metformin.
In short I'm sort of lingering around. My Fitbit reminds me daily of the poor calories in vs. out that I am doing. I actively chart my food, water, and servings of veggies but, I haven't been very proud of the quality of my efforts. My clothes are tight because I'm puffy from bad choices, and the scale is stuck in the same 5 pound fluctuation.