Late Saturday evening
Sunday, December 08, 2013
I ended up not baking rolls today, and it's all John Besh's fault. He HAD to go and make cornbread on his cooking show this morning. Every so often I get frantic cravings for cornbread, especially when I'm making bean soup like today. So I ended up making cornbread instead. It was delicious. His book tour comes to San Francisco today. I'd give anything to be there, but I can't even begin to afford even the commute down there, let alone the admission price. (Then again, I have to admit that I'd be ashamed to have him see me the way I look.)
Ex has informed me that they're not coming for Christmas, and I can't go down there because of the stairs (and the cost of the commute). I'm already recording the Christmas episodes from Food Network, which I love, but it's not what I need. I so badly wanted to have the big table surrounded by kids, kids-in-law and grandkids. I never imagined ending up so alone. I tried to volunteer to help feed the homeless one Christmas, but the organizers told me I couldn't because of my limited mobility. Everyone at work is talking about their exciting plans. I do my level best not to hear them.
I guess I'm just not in a very good mood tonight.