Friday, December 06, 2013
I have a serious lack of focus going on. I'm trying desperately to get back into it. I've left the food tracking slide a bit, but not to any serious detriment. I was holding pretty steady at 119 pounds for weeks, bumped up to 120 I think, and went back down again. No major flux there which is good.
My exercise routine has been pretty good though. I attribute that mostly to the fact that I try to get it in so early in the day, I'm too tired to figure how to talk my way out of it.
In November, I participated in National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) and made the goal. The story was darker than any I've written before. I pulled out some dark things in my past. It was both cathartic and scary. I'm not entirely sure resurrecting some of it was the healthiest to do. It made for some intense writing though.
Things are still very stressful though and that makes it difficult to focus. I find myself not so much drifting because that seems too slow a process. Instead, my thoughts are more of the ricocheting variety. It's a work in progress to reign them in, but hey, that is what life is all about, right?