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Frustrated w/ Self

Friday, December 06, 2013

As I sit here writing this I find myself binge eating and I was hoping that by coming on this site and looking around I would get the willpower to stop eating. I know it is all in my control regardless of what I look at. The willpower to stop has to come from within but I feel so weak. I'm also going out to dinner tonight and I want to try and eat "healthy" but that will depend on what everyone else is ordering. My lunch was healthy and not healthy at the whole time. I had a breaded chicken breast on a hard roll with cheese melted. The reason this is healthy for me is because even though it was breaded chicken it was chicken. It wasn't a microwaveable pizza or a lean pocket or something else I eat that is not remotely healthy for me. However, when I went to the store earlier I bought junk food and that is not good because I am trying to resist eating more then I already have eaten. I downloaded some workout videos but can't get myself to burn them so I can use them to workout. I just am in a major rut and I notice I'm rambling right now. I guess I'll end this here!

If anyone reads this, thanks for taking the time to read my ramble!
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JSPECKS 12/7/2013 10:27AM

    Thanks FINCHFEEDER80 and Lisa, it is good to know the support is there! I will try to treat each moment for what it is!

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LOFLLAMA 12/7/2013 1:02AM

    TODAY is a NEW day!!! Start here! I believe, the more aware you stay the better you will get at making good decisions for yourself. Use every bad choice as an opportunity to do better! You can. I have faith in you. I love you & am rooting for you.

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FINCHFEEDER80 12/6/2013 2:28PM

    emoticon Some days are definitely harder than others. I kind of think of my "good days" like practice. I'm practing a healthy lifestyle, and practice makes progress (cause around here, we focus on progress, not perfection!). Don't dwell on the less than stellar choices, and celebrate every little teeny tiny victory! And feel free to reach out whenever you need some support, because we all do at times. Best of luck to you, and my door is always open!

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JSPECKS 12/6/2013 1:36PM

    Thanks SPARKLERS30 and CAROLYNL8E for your support and encouragement.

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CAROLYNL8E 12/6/2013 1:17PM

    Tomorrow is a new day. Don't give up on today! I find myself binging quite frequently too. Maybe start logging your food, and be honest about it. I did this when I was doing a lot of binging and the shock of how many calories I was eating helped with the binge eating. emoticon

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SPARKLERS30 12/6/2013 12:59PM

    I understand where your coming from, you are not alone. Small steps towards our goals. I have had a hard time finding things in life that are better then food and even with all the reasoning in the world it calls me back. My only defense is to work on what's going with me on the inside and to stay away from foods that trigger me to binge. It is a daily struggle for me and a lot of times the food wins out. I dust myself of and try again. One things for sure NEVER GIVE UP!! emoticon

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JSPECKS 12/6/2013 12:57PM

    Thanks for the support and encouragement STUDLEEJOE!

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STUDLEEJOE 12/6/2013 12:51PM

    Don't worry about what you did yesterday. Start today and Keep on Sparking

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