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Difficult Feelings, but Still Eating Well & Exercising

Friday, December 06, 2013

I'm currently working with another person on a workbook concerning healing past trauma. A lot of difficult feelings are coming up. I'm feeling more and more tempted to just shut down and sleep for the rest of my life. And eat junk.

But I'm not doing that. I'm taking this one drink of water, one snack, one meal, one workout, one day at a time.

I'm reminding myself, "Food is not the cure-all for difficult feelings, tiredness, boredom, loneliness, celebrations, or anything else. It is fuel for my body as I get healthier and healthier."

Also--why am I doing this? The food and water disciplines . . . the exercise disciplines . . . the workouts . . . ? I'm doing this because the alternative (sleeping way too much, eating junk almost all the time, isolating, and generally shutting down from life) is no longer an option. Those actions are the way to a slow, uncomfortable, burdensome death.

The feelings will pass, but they're not passing yet. Until they do, I will take this journey (as I said) one drink of water at a time, one snack at a time, one meal at a time, one workout at a time, and one day at a time.

Not only is it "I will do this," but it's "I am doing this." Period.

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    I know this scenario well; what we all know is - after we gobble all the goodies, sleep away a portion of the days, etc. - the hurts are still there to deal with and face. So, I find the healthier I get, the better able to face the emotions. Sounds like a great workbook.
    1533 days ago
    You are so strong and I am so proud of you for dealing with your past hurts! It made a world of difference in my life when I did it (more than) a few years ago. I should probably do it again. ;-)

    Keep up the good work, girl!
    1535 days ago
  • WALNUTT1961
    Hang in there! You have the right attitude and are doing your best.

    Thinking of you,
    Lee Ann emoticon
    1535 days ago
    It is so easy to just give up but it sounds like you are a strong and determined person. Keep going. You are on the right path! emoticon
    1535 days ago
    Keep up a positive attitude. I don't know who you are going through, but I hope for the best for you.

    Just remember when it gets hard that you CAN do it, you CAN get through it.

    Hope all goes well.
    1535 days ago
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