Friday, December 06, 2013
Feeling down, but determined today. Got on the scale, against my better judgement and while I havent gained, I havent lost either.
Then I got to thinking, Jan 7th, the day before I broke my foot, I took a pic of me on the scale, It was a day of victory and celebration, as I was down a full 70 lbs from where I had started.
Now, I am only down 56 pounds, I have gained, in 11 months, a full 14 pounds this year.
No loss, so I was determined to lose that, or as much as I could, before next Jan 7th, which is a month away.
Under normal circumstances, losing 14 pounds would be hard for me in a month, but this is the month of cookies and candy and stopping off to eat after shopping, and turkey and dressing and ambrosias galore!!!! oh and of nog and rum drinks and candies made of peanut butter and bourbon!!!
And while I can refrain from over indulging in any of these, I cant guarantee I wont sample.
So, I know, or at least realistically I anticipate, going into 2014 heavier than I went into 2013!!!!
This angers me to the point, that I know I have to buckle down and get serious, again.
I have to do this.
There IS NO OTHER CHOICE!!!
Last night, I replayed in my head the visit to the surgeons office over a year ago and how I was determined when I walked out of her office that I would never return, I would never undergo lap band or bypass for weight loss!!!
And I worked my butt off, literally, my butt is alot smaller.
But I cant seem to lose with that same commitment, I cant seem to find my way back to that place.
So, the best I can do is watch my every bite, walk as much as I can, lift weights, use the bands, and workout at home as much as I can, because today, its in the 30s and pouring rain, pouring, literally, wet wet and wetter!!!
I can only do the best I can and just see where I am when the new year rings in, hopefully it will be alot closer to NORMAL.
Wherever that is.
2014 is going to be a year of renewal, renewal of hard work and commitment.