Friday, December 06, 2013
Everybody talks about that turning point, right? The moment they KNEW things were going to change, they were going to make an effort. When I first started Spark I didn't have a huge "AH-HA!" moment like most people talk about. I didn't really know what to think about that, but it worked for me...until it didn't. But last night, I had a moment - less of an "AH-HA!" and more of a "OMFG! NOOOOOO!" moment and I knew I was moving toward the right headspace to get myself back in the game. Last night, my son took a picture of me asleep on the couch with the dog. He thought it was cute because our little dog lays ON TOP of whomever, but especially me, and we were both asleep in the same basic position and my son thought it was hilarious. I thought it was horrifying and I've looked at the picture several times since. It makes me want to cry, and scream, and break things...but most of all, it makes me want to redevote myself to my life, my health, and regaining the joy I once felt when I woke up in the morning ready to start a new day.
Sometimes the steps aren't what we think they are and we just have to keep moving to find them in the dark...until someone turns on the light.
I have a ton of reasons for why right now isn't the best time to start this whole thing. Most of them deal with a lack of finances on my part. We're seriously strapped right now with Christmas and the new house, so being creative about eating "right" is going to be interesting...to say the least.
The pros? As far as working out is concerned I'm totally set. My neighborhood is GREAT for walks. People walk and run up and down my street all day every day. I have a huge basement now with a ST machine that will work to get me started and a 70 lb heavy bag, handwraps and gloves. I also have the full WATP DVD set and can watch several workout vids on Amazon Prime whenever I want for FREE. I just bought myself a new roll of KT Tape Pro. As long as I remember to take it slow and steady, I should be fine here. EATING is going to be the challenge.
For now, it's all about serving sizes and shrinking my stomach back to normal again. It won't necessarily be the things I want to fit around my healthy lifestyle, but it will be a start. It will also include drinking a crapton of water to flush out my system (water is FREE!). The only pro here? We have no money to eat out! *lol* You gotta find the YAY where you can, people!
Working toward a new year challenge to get me started in 2014. I have to get back to regular goal setting because it keeps me focused and engaged. It's not about the 100 pounds I need to lose (actually, there's more than that...but let's not even go there), it's about the next 10 and what I'm going to do right now to get them gone for good.