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Procrastination Costs

Friday, December 06, 2013

I have decided to change the way I do New Year's Resolutions. Normally I make a list of 20 or so unrealistic or under inspired resolutions that I fail within days (if not minutes) of Midnight of the New Year. Usually my list contains no less than 5 resolutions I have made at least a dozen times in the past. I'm changing that TODAY!

One of the most inspirational things I have ever read on Spark was in a blog. I do not know who she was, but I was so impressed I wish I had at least friended the author so I could use her for inspiration on a daily basis. She had overeaten on her dinner calories & immediately went for a walk. She didn't wait until tomorrow...until Monday...until the 1st...like I would have. She got right back on the wagon THAT NIGHT!...That hour!

This may seem like a small feat, but to a super-star procrastinator like me, it was huge! SERIOUSLY!

I have blown entire years by overeating 15 calories.
I have blown entire years by not exercising first thing in the morning.
I have blown entire years by smoking a cigarette 2 minutes after midnight.
I have blown entire years by drinking a sip of what was left in the bottom of a bottle.
I have blown entire years by being 10 minutes late.

It wasn't literally years at a time, but all that time has added up to years. I really have procrastinated away half my life. It's embarrassing....to say the least.

I have wanted to be a published author for years. I wrote my first book 20+ years ago. I even submitted it to publishers. It was rejected. I never tried again. I was arrogant. I didn't follow their guidelines. I didn't submit a query first. It wasn't good enough. It wasn't typed correctly. It probably wasn't even edited. It wasn't FINISHED.

I recently joined 3 writer's websites. I have never had enough faith in myself to invest money in me. Somehow it seems like self-indulgence. I had to talk myself into investing a few dollars. I worry that I won't follow through, won't be good enough, won't be able to compete, will get writer's block...I worry about anything (everything) so I can have an excuse not to try.

The worst that can happen is that I'll find out I'm not a published author. I'm ALREADY not, so what's that going to hurt? I can afford the few dollars that I'll spend on dues. I could spend that much money on soda & candy. If it works out I could win it back on one writing contest. Even if it doesn't, I'll be okay. It's a few dollars.

The first website is just a personal blog. Much like the one I write here. Hopefully, they'll be longer & more organized. I've gotten more organized since I started writing these blogs. I know I still jump around, but I consider that part of my charm. HA! I have another personal blog that I've made public, but since I write here I don't usually write much there. And because I don't have an 'audience' I don't feel as motivated to write it & therefore I haven't become attached to it. This blog is part of me.

What I'll probably do in the beginning is share the same blog of the day. I enjoy writing these blogs. I would like to try to make money doing it, but from what I understand they kind of want you to stick to a general topic. I'm not interested in writing about the same thing every day. I want to share my knowledge about Bipolar, Alcoholism & Mental Illness, but I'm so much more than that. I want to write about so much more than that.

The second website I joined is a place to be reviewed & review other author's work. Novice & published author alike can critique your work. I can review theirs too. I can even submit reviews if I like. This one concerns me. I do not take criticism very well. I know nobody does, but I have lost friends over this. I'm very sensitive. I hear belittling & hatred in criticism. I expect honesty because that's the only way I know how to deal with people. I was never given 'constructive criticism' as a child. I was called names, punished or threatened when I didn't do something right. I wasn't taught to do it right. I was expected to do it right!

This is probably the most important website for me. I need to be able to hear criticism without just giving up. I can't wait 20+ years between rejection letters if I really ever expect to get published. I am going to work hard to take this as a lesson. I want to be the best writer I can be & being able to take criticism will be helpful to me if I can learn from it.

The third (& final) website is contests. I can enter contests for poems to a full length novel. I can submit a Haiku or a chapter from my life story. A Non-Fiction event or my poetry. I can join every contest or none. With a monthly due all of the contests are free. It has a monthly or yearly fee that you pay & they offer up to 75 contests a month free of entry fees. I can't remember the dues right now, but I know it's less than $10 a month. You also have 7 days to cancel your membership.

I'm not waiting for January 1, 2014 to make resolutions. My resolutions are going to start being committed to on the day I decide to take on a new venture. I'm not going to waste any more time surmising what could, should or would have been.

I am not wasting any more years taking a last sip, smoking another cigarette or overeating an extra bite. I may lose a minute or even an hour, but I will not let those moments turn into years. I am going to go for a walk 20 minutes after my overindulgent meal....not 20 years later!

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PEANUTSDOG17 12/8/2013 6:49PM

  Time to get on the band wagon!!!! No more excuses for me either! emoticon emoticon emoticon

Shari emoticon

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EILEEN828 12/7/2013 5:18AM

    Go gangbusters! This has always been a secret dream for me,as well. My problem is I don't know what to write about. I'm such a perfectionist that I want it to be meaningful to people. I like your initiative! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KIM22211 12/7/2013 4:07AM

    been hearing this a lot around spark world think it is a sign for me to get going now on this!

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CHERYLE51 12/6/2013 10:36PM

    We have a friend who has been a writer for years and years. He has spent thousands of dollars, has never had anything published, but keeps at it. It is his hobby. Hey go for it. You never know until you try. I think you are an amazing writer. Well, I'm off to have my drink and relax and hope my head quits pounding.

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WOWEETOO 12/6/2013 7:18PM

    my dear i have preached that constantly here half the battle is not waiting around for tommorrow or monday or the first of the month or or or to get started over again..actually it isn't starting over..it's picking up where you left off (one meal never added even one pound to anyone and ditto with the ice cream it's the constant doing it you have to watch) yep i'm with you and i quit making resolutions because they are such a waste of my time..if i need to do it i'll do no resolution is going to police me and make me it has to me doing it..because i don't do resolutions i have no feelings of failure and that goes double for the weight loss and that's why it is sticking this time
knows i loves you and your blogs my friend
the lady mary
the ice storm is here and they cancalled the christmas parade and lit the tree before dark and we are all hunkered down with our bread and milk and candles lol emoticon

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MOTHEPRO 12/6/2013 3:12PM

    Good luck!

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TURTLELADY56 12/6/2013 2:21PM

  half the battle is seeing this in our selves and saying ok that was the old me i am creating a new me .....you go gf!!!!


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KAREN608 12/6/2013 1:07PM

    Lots of think about... of course me first resolution is to do the back exercises every day to strengthen some puny muscles that are causing all this pain! 5 reps two times a day. No over doing allowed.

So glad you are doing writing courses etc. Sounds fun.

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GENRE009 12/6/2013 12:39PM

    hi! I THINK YOU ARE A VERY SINCERE, AND CARING PERSON. iT IS UNFORTUNATE THAT YOU HAVE THESE MEDICAL PROBLEMS! iN A WAY WE ALL HAVE AS THEY SAY,"OUR CROSSES TO BEAR!" mINE HAS ALWAYS BEEN GOING IN AND OUT OF MEDICAL CONDITIONS FROM DOCTORS OVERDOSING ME, OR CAR ACCIDENTS, LATER I WATCHED FAMILY MEMBERS BECOME VICTIMS OF ABUSE FROM MY MOTHER GETTING DEMENTIA. oK, THERE MY MASK IS DOWN. aND I WANT YOU TO SEE THAT I AM COMING FROM A PLACE OF CARING, ALWAYS, NEVER TOO HURT ANYONE. bUT LOOKING AT YOUR OLD RESOLUTIONS,NONE OF THEM I WOULD THINK COULD RUIN A WHOLE YEAR. I POSSIBLY THINK YOU ARE VERY HARD ON YOURSELF! wE ALL DO THAT. tAKE CARE, AND I AM GLAD THAT LIKE ALL OF US YOU WANT CHANGE.LOL eva
what are those writing web sites? I have written on contests! Came in second, I told everyone. But everyone else came in first!!!!Ha, ha. But the two I enter, I new I wasn't that good, had no style. They new each other, The editor & The department of English at a college! So my only mistake there was that I didn't slip them a $20.00, ha, ha. eva


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IAM146POUNDS 12/6/2013 12:20PM

    Another great blog. Thanks for sharing those thoughts.

You recognise what is holding you back from achieving your goals, which is more than half the battle.

Perfectionism and difficulty taking criticism are common to a lot of high achievers and when they can give themselves some slack and bounce back from the 'slings and arrows of outrageous fortune' and learn what ever lessons are being presented, then they'll get where they want to be.

Keep focussed, you know that you can do this, this is your time to shine xxxx.

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MARILYNROBERT 12/6/2013 12:06PM

    I'm going to drop the habit of claiming I've failed for the rest of the day, week, month, years, or my life just because I didn't do something correctly. That's a lousy excuse to keep on doing things that aren't good for me. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SUEPERWOMAN 12/6/2013 11:25AM

 

good for you! I'm not waiting, either!!!

Love, Ginger

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TOKIEMOON 12/6/2013 9:05AM

    I know you will do well, I enjoy your writing style, and I don't find your thoughts to be scattered. You are so much more intellectually inclined to write than I am. Any topic can become interesting given, your talented hand.

I'm not saying you will start out being applauded for everything you write, but you will learn new ways to fine tune your style and even branch out more than you have so far.

I do applaud your resolution to live fully in the present, rather than put things off to later. I should adopt the same philosophy, perhaps I will at a later date. emoticon

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SANDRALEET 12/6/2013 7:33AM

    I will live each day the best I can one day at a time

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LISALGB 12/6/2013 7:14AM

    Wow! You are truly inspirational. What great advice! You have a gift.
Blessings!

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AWESOMECHELZ 12/6/2013 7:13AM

    I took a writing course recently and have lots of links. I don't now which you will like or not but if you are interested, I can email you all the links and then you can choose which ones to bookmark. I love your dream because it is mine too. emoticon emoticon
LOVE, CHELSEA

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MADMIRANDA 12/6/2013 5:38AM

    Pretty inspiring stuff. So happy you are taking definite steps to reach your goal. You have to be professional to get published and take criticism. It can hurt but you can do it! emoticon

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COCK-ROBIN 12/6/2013 4:51AM

    Good resolutions, and ones you can keep!

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GHOSTFLAMES 12/6/2013 4:50AM

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