Thursday, December 05, 2013
At last we have come to the end of the year. 2013 wasn't that bad for me personally. I mean I gained weight and that sucked, but I had a lot of accomplishment this year that made me feel really good. I finished grad school with a GPA of 3.7 which is one of my biggest and best accomplishments of he year.
Now as I approach the end of the year and go into the New Year, I really want to make sure I am the best me in 2014. I will be 34 years old this year (January 26th to be exact) and I plan on reaching my goals this year as I did last year. I have time to focus on me and my family like I would like to now that I am done with school. It was pretty rough going to school, working, interning and taking care of my boys. I NEVER really made time for me. Now that I have finished the school and interning piece, I can make time for me and my body. I want to work on me in a holistic way. Not just my physical body but also the inner part and areas of me that need worked on that I have neglected. Now that all the big things are out of the way, I have to face the things that I pushed to the side because I put other things ahead. Do you know what I am saying?
I am a Christian and I really neglected my spirituality a lot during the past few years. I still went to church here and there, but for me its not all about the physical church but the church that is within me. Sorry if I am being to "religious" for some of you. I am honestly not a religious person really. I am more spiritual then anything. I love God, but I don't feel like I have to sit in church Sunday - Saturday. That isn't what is going to get me into heaven. Anyway, I digress, I just want to work on ALL of me this coming year. Start paying more attention to the areas that need it.
With all this weight gain, I developed a bit of a self image issue. I also see that my self esteem isn't as high as it use to be when I was smaller. I want to feel 100% good about myself like I use to. Be proud of what I see in the mirror. That begins with working on the inside first. In order to be right with the outside, I have to work on the inside you know?
So as this year comes to an end, I reflect on the things that I want to change about myself that I have the ability to change. Sometimes that also means getting rid of some people in your life that may not be best for you to be around. I love my family, but there are some family members that are pretty toxic for me to be around. I don't need to keep them so close to me because they often hurt me. So I am choosing to love some of them at arms length so that I can protect myself emotionally.
December is my month of reflection and finding..... well..... ME! :)