Thursday, December 05, 2013
So, I "fell off the wagon" I guess you could say. The last blog on here is me talking about how proud I am to get below 270, and then over the last couple of months I went right back up to 287! I was very depressed and anxious. A lot had happened, and at some point I started filling the hole with food. I had to eat until I could barely move before that empty feeling would go away.
I asked for the bodymedia link armband for christmas, and I was really worried that even that couldn't snap me back to reality anytime soon. But it did! I am back on track with tracking things. I don't always make the best choices, but I still track them even when they are bad. And I've learned that even if I do decide to eat fried chicken 2 or 3 days in a row (it was leftovers that needed to be used up!) well, that's ok, but I should probably seriously nix the condiments I use to dip it in. Specifically ranch dressing! Holy crap that stuff adds up! So, I'm back in the learning stages again I guess. And I'm making slow steps.
I have a lot of chronic pain issues, on top of which, I still have whiplash from an accident I got into on memorial day. I really need to go have a pain shot for that, but it scares me. Anyway, the point is, I can't push myself as hard as I would like...I have to set my goals way below average. But at least I still have goals. Some people may look at them and think "3,000 steps per day? Why bother?" But that 3000 steps is a challenge for me! So, I am going to be proud of myself each time I reach that goal. And each time I reach 20 minutes of moderate activity a day as well :)
It's a long long road, but I'm going to try my best to stick with it this time!!!
OH! I almost forgot to mention! While I started this anew, I was at 287 and I am now down to 278! In less than a week! I know it won't continue to come off that quickly. But I'll be glad when I can complete my original short term goal, which is to be below 270 again!