Tuesday, December 03, 2013
So my day has only started and I'm already 800 calories over for the day! I really wanted an ice cream and so I stopped before work. I've been craving chocolate and sweets so bad the last few days. So I have all night at work to really think about what I want. I plan to think about why I keep sabotaging myself. I mean i did really good from April to August and I wasn't fighting cravings or anything. I've found a meal that's pretty decently low calorie for work. I just like to make excuses. For example, my husband is on a slight different schedule than I am so instead of just making me some food, i order pizza. Why does it really matter if we miss out on a meal for each other? He can make himself something as well.
What's worse is I thought i had him on board with the weight loss but he's starting to eat just as crappy as I am again. i have all these things I want to change about myself but I also want the weight to keep coming off. I'm not happy with maybe losing .6 pounds every week until I'm at my goal weight. It looks like it's time to go into full on research mode tonight.
So frustrated but i"M going to not let it stop me. There's always tomorrow and i can try to focus tonight on not going too much more over my calories.