Tuesday, December 03, 2013
I was looking through my SparkPeople page today and I actually was honest and tracked all of the calories that I ate. For me, this was a big accomplishment. Sure, I have logged in pretty regularly and I have huddled with the teams that I'm in and I've read the articles. However, I haven't been honest with myself. Why am I not posting the foods that I eat and the things that I do? I was looking over some articles on SparkPeople when I realized that the reason that I have not been fully present is because I am not fully committed. I knew that the moment I truly sat down and posted everything that I ate, I would see how truly absent I am from my journey. I could attempt to justify it by saying things like, "Well, I have been busy at work," or "I did just move across the country." I could and I have. I've used the aforementioned to excuse myself from not pursuing my weight loss goals. Just this last week, I boasted to my future-in-laws that starting January 1, 2014, I am going to start a diet. I am going to exercise and diet so that when I get married, I'll look my very best. However, I thought about it long and hard and realized that for me to truly get the most out of it, not only do I have to be honest, I have to be willing to let it change my life entirely. I can't just do it temporarily. I've done it before and I've had decent results. Much like an addict, I've relapsed back into bad eating habits and lack of exercise. I realize now that that's just simply not going to cut it anymore. I have to fully commit and not look at it as a diet, but as a way of improving my way of life. I live in Phoenix, Arizona and I see everyone be so active and what's crazy is that I long to be a part of that community. What's stopping me now? I type before you today with an increased resolve to really take matters into my own hands. Part of that includes being a more present member and really connecting with other members. I've seen the amazing results that a lot of you have experienced and how it has truly changed your lives. Look out SparkUniverse, because soon enough, I'll be joining you!