The "F" Word ...
Tuesday, December 03, 2013
This weekend I will participate in my first real "race" and in the past three weeks "Fear" has crept in along with doubt.
I decided back in early September that I needed a new goal ... a new challenge to jump start my weight loss and push me further. I decided I would sign up for a local race and I started looking into what was out there. I figured that I would give myself 3 months to complete the C25K program and I should be able to do a race.
I found one that sounded fun and also was in the timeline of finishing up with BLC23. It is called www.christmastowndash.co
I thought the name sounded fun (Christmas Town Dash) and that we will be running through "Christmastown" in Williamsburg. It sounds lovely with Christmas music playing throughout the town. The "daunting" thing to me was that it is an 8K. I did see that there was a walking option but you had to complete the course in 2 hours max. I signed up for the "walkers" group which will be last to start.
The training begins ... I started the C25K program using a treadmill at the Y. It was hard at first but I was able to follow the program and gradually increase my "jogging" time. My "Faith" in being able to do this race was growing stronger.
At about 7 weeks into the 9 week program I was waiting for my DS16 to finish his swimming and I remembered that there was a track next door to the pool so I thought I will go and run around the track. Well ...
I was faced with a huge shock and the reality that running "outside" was a lot different than running on a treadmill.
I quickly regrouped ... scoured the internet and Sparkpeople for the differences of running outside to inside and what I could do to help better prepare. I started inserting outside running into my training and I was feeling a little better when I was able to complete a 5K around my neighborhood. Mind you it wasn't "pretty" but I made it. I still had to face the fact that even though I could make it through a 5K ... I hadn't really done the 8K. Last weekend I was reminding my DH that I had the race this upcoming weekend and he started to doubt my abilities stating "Have you ever completed 5 Miles of walking even?" ... I told him to
right there and quit feeding the "F" word of fear. I told him that I need him to have "faith" in me and I need to have "faith" in myself.
Determined to disable the "fear" I decided to try an 8K for my training. Yesterday morning I completed an 8K on the treadmill ... a combination of jogging and fast walking. I was able to finish in 80 minutes ... under my goal of 90 minutes and well under the course restriction of 120 minutes. My highlight was being able to jog for 15 minutes straight.
Saturday morning will come ... I will be ready ... I will finish ... I have Faith ...
Spark on ~ Cookie