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The "F" Word ...

Tuesday, December 03, 2013

This weekend I will participate in my first real "race" and in the past three weeks "Fear" has crept in along with doubt.

I decided back in early September that I needed a new goal ... a new challenge to jump start my weight loss and push me further. I decided I would sign up for a local race and I started looking into what was out there. I figured that I would give myself 3 months to complete the C25K program and I should be able to do a race.

I found one that sounded fun and also was in the timeline of finishing up with BLC23. It is called
I thought the name sounded fun (Christmas Town Dash) and that we will be running through "Christmastown" in Williamsburg. It sounds lovely with Christmas music playing throughout the town. The "daunting" thing to me was that it is an 8K. I did see that there was a walking option but you had to complete the course in 2 hours max. I signed up for the "walkers" group which will be last to start.

The training begins ... I started the C25K program using a treadmill at the Y. It was hard at first but I was able to follow the program and gradually increase my "jogging" time. My "Faith" in being able to do this race was growing stronger.

At about 7 weeks into the 9 week program I was waiting for my DS16 to finish his swimming and I remembered that there was a track next door to the pool so I thought I will go and run around the track. Well ... emoticon I was faced with a huge shock and the reality that running "outside" was a lot different than running on a treadmill.

I quickly regrouped ... scoured the internet and Sparkpeople for the differences of running outside to inside and what I could do to help better prepare. I started inserting outside running into my training and I was feeling a little better when I was able to complete a 5K around my neighborhood. Mind you it wasn't "pretty" but I made it. I still had to face the fact that even though I could make it through a 5K ... I hadn't really done the 8K. Last weekend I was reminding my DH that I had the race this upcoming weekend and he started to doubt my abilities stating "Have you ever completed 5 Miles of walking even?" ... I told him to emoticon right there and quit feeding the "F" word of fear. I told him that I need him to have "faith" in me and I need to have "faith" in myself.

Determined to disable the "fear" I decided to try an 8K for my training. Yesterday morning I completed an 8K on the treadmill ... a combination of jogging and fast walking. I was able to finish in 80 minutes ... under my goal of 90 minutes and well under the course restriction of 120 minutes. My highlight was being able to jog for 15 minutes straight.

Saturday morning will come ... I will be ready ... I will finish ... I have Faith ... emoticon

Spark on ~ Cookie

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SUSANELAINE1956 12/8/2013 10:48AM

    Great job of conquering your fears. I read your race got postponed until next week - Good Luck! emoticon

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FELINEBETTER 12/6/2013 8:32PM

    Wow! What a great blog!!! So inspiring! I have all the faith in the world that you are going to successfully meet this challenge!

YOU GO GIRL!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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FARRAH511 12/4/2013 1:57PM

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WEBEZE 12/4/2013 2:04AM

    You go Girl. I have Faith in you. I am eager to hear your race report.
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MLJSPARK 12/3/2013 11:52PM

    emoticon You will do emoticon !!! emoticon taking on this challenge, emoticon

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CATLOVER110 12/3/2013 8:37PM

    Great blog! I'm sure you'll be able to do the race! emoticon

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MALAMI518 12/3/2013 4:30PM

    "The miracle isn't that I finished. The miracle is that I had the courage to start." - John Bingham

You have taken the first giant steps, and I know that you will succeed in your 8K. I have "run" 2 5Ks and a 13K so far, and I still get nervous every time. Once I'm running, though, the fear pretty much leaves me. Take a deep breath and then enjoy! That sounds like an amazing race, and I wish that I could run it.


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SIMONEKP 12/3/2013 1:02PM

    Even if you don't finish in the permitted time, push to the end.

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JMOUSE99 12/3/2013 12:45PM

    emoticon I love the question "what's the worst that can happen?" You already know you can complete the course in under 2 hours, so why worry about anything else? Go get 'em!

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BELLSES 12/3/2013 12:44PM

    You CAN do it! You will absolutely come in under the limit! You have faith in yourself, and we do too!

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    Love your blog! I have great faith in you.
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AMARILYNH 12/3/2013 11:33AM

    OMG - that sounds SO FUN!! Don't worry for one minute - what you aren't figuring in as you think of the race is the HUGE adrenaline rush you will get from the crowd! Just be sure to hold yourself back a bit in the first mile - watch your running watch because your instinct will be to go with the crowd! In fact placing yourself with the walkers will be a good idea - with the runners it will be VERY hard not to take off too fast!

Oh how I could be there to do this race with you! I used to be a runner but (for the moment) have made the decision to stick with walking because of knee issues. But I may just be looking into this race for next year - it sounds like a TON of fun!!

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MARYBETH4884 12/3/2013 11:06AM

    I love the changing of your F word!! Especially this time of year!! The crowd, the sights and the music will encourage you on even more! Enjoy!!

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STEVIEBEE569 12/3/2013 9:31AM

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SONYALATRECE 12/3/2013 9:29AM

    I needed this blog and feel encouraged now.

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NUTZ4HARRY 12/3/2013 9:22AM

    You are going to do great in your 8 K! Cudos for doing one. I have only done a 5K for walking because the pounding on pavement is bad for my back. Good Luck and can't wait to hear all about the race!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SFREY217 12/3/2013 8:49AM

    You will do great !! Don't doubt yourself. You have proved that you can finish within the time limit. The first one is always the hardest because of the fear of the unknown. I have done 7 official races and a lot of virtual ones ( with SP and on my own). You are ready for this and the race day adrenalin will help too. Just find your pace and go with it. You are not racing anyone but yourself !! Good luck !! You can do this !!! emoticon

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JIBBIE49 12/3/2013 8:39AM

    That is why COURAGE is the most important virtue to possess.

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