Tuesday, December 03, 2013
So much has been going on off and on and off and on and it feels like a never ending battle to get some stability here. Some more big changes are happening for sure now.
Daycare was off to a good start but the little boy I was watching isn't adjusting as quickly as his Mom would like PLUS she's had something else come up with an opportunity to have free daycare for a bit that will be at home. She's thinking this is the way she'd like to go even after the daycare is no longer free, and quite frankly I don't blame her for one minute because I'd totally be doing the same thing in her shoes. I honestly believe that is it up to the CHILD about a daycare. It's the children that have to deal with the situation and just because it is a good idea for one child doesn't make it a good one for another. Every child is different. Although at the same time I feel that a good opportunity must be explored before it should be passed up which in this case I believe it has. We 're still going to get the kids together and have fun but when both his Mom and I are avail =]
My other change is going to be really big...it is official...Joe has finally accepted that our relationship is not repairable and that it's just best if we part ways. We had a "real" talk about it today...which means no yelling or swearing at each other, just normal talking which hasn't happened in a long time...a true sign that it's reached that point. We have a lot of things to work out for the time being and I'm not sure I can commit fully to my plan ahead blogs.
This weekend we are having Christmas on my Mom's side of the family. It will be dinner, presents and then go to the parade. It's very very early this year but it's easier and less stress this way. Nothing more to do with Christmas til Christmas Eve, but it's going to get hectic because I had expected a bit of extra cash flow with a daycare kid but won't have that for now. Going to put up ads again for a new kid in hopes to have one start beginning of Jan and then my other one will be starting in Feb.
My Mom was here for a few days. That's why I hadn't been on much the last few days. She sounded like she really wanted to move out of my sister's place so I offered her a place to stay til she could get a job and a place of her own. She sounded interested and then she went to my brother's place and now it sounds like she'll be moving into there possibly even though she hates that town and there are no jobs there. I'm pretty sure she just enjoys babysitting in exchange for a room. She'd never do that here because I have "too many kids" and it's just too much for her she says. But on the same note she says that my kids are easier to watch than just my brother's kid...oh well, I know she just doesn't want to get back into the work force.
As for me...I'm dying to get back into the work force, just not back into the food industry. I'm going to carefully figure out what I want to do with the next couple years and what I can do realistically by the time the lil ones are in school. I'm going to try and keep up with volunteer work in hopes to get some sort of experience in other fields and to make good contacts with people in town that can get me into a decent job. I have 3 1/2 years to figure it all out.
SO where do I go from here?? I want to make a 1 year, 2 year, and 5 year plan, and maybe a 10 year too. To have real specific goals that I can work towards, but also a few that I feel might be out of reach just to see if I can actually figure out a way to go above and beyond where I think I could go as of now. Like the saying says..."shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars" - Les Brown
When Joe has officially left I can truly aim for my true potential. I'll have no one to blame but myself if I can't get there. Currently I'm scatterbrained for 2 reasons...1 - I'm like that when I don't focus on one task, and 2 - I have too many goals on my mind and can't focus on them all but to me they are all equally just as important. Time to sit down with myself and figure out what is what and go from there.
I won't be on to blog the rest of this week, but I will be brainstorming because I want next year to be a year of focus. This year has been a year of decluttering - and I've done quite well and if I'm really lucky, I might be close to done soon =]
Has anyone else put forth any thought about what they plan on doing for the next year and how far they've come so far this year??